Hiii its been a while since I last sat down and wrote a long paragraph of how Im doing n whatnot etc. Ive been MIA for a while for multiple reasons. Ive realized I have a pattern of isolating myself whenever I feel unsure of who I am because of a major shift in life or whenever I feel like I am no longer in control of my own life - thats when I take a step back to reevaluate and figure out the lessons that life is trying to teach me. I’m someone that’s constantly taking in new ideas and constantly changing. So this happens quite often and Im learning to manage it in a healthier way. 2017 was by far the most challenging year of my life. Wow the amount of shit I had to deal with in matter of months was un fathomable. But strangely despite numerous breakdowns I still handled everything and I was okay. I didnt know how strong I am or what Im capable of mentally and physically until after this year. Hhaha my mom always says that I have bad luck cuz I almost died 3 times in the US. But I think Im so fucking lucky!!! I think that experiences like these are needed for growth, and Im grateful that Ive been given opportunities to figure out what this life is about in my own way. Im always so fascinated by people and their stories, what theyve been thru, what theyve learned. Its amazing how blinded we are sometimes with the delusion of how we are supposed to live. Everyone is battling something in their lives right now. Instead of pretending that ur happy all the time, its ok to share ur thoughts and struggles as well. Im trying to figure out which path to go for my career: creative or educational. What battle r u struggling with? #tiinasdiary