最好的自己不在未來，就在現在。

認真回想，以前我好像在每一段關係中都是在扮演某一個角色，不由自主的在為每個對象做調整。不只有在戀愛上，有時候可能跟朋友、工作夥伴都是，尤其是在前輩面前，常常我都會本能反應似的改變自己。聲音要甜一點嗎？笑話要低級一點嗎？從穿衣服就可以看出，我今天是要跟誰吃飯。雖然是微調，但透露出了一件事，我好像不夠喜歡真正的自己，所以才會擔心大家也不會喜歡真正的我。我告訴自己即使累，但如果持續努力，有一天就能變成大家都喜歡的Lara。

久而久之我和世界的相處模式只有「由外到內」，會依照別人對我的反應去斷定我的下一步。大家會覺得我很好相處，我卻越來越不快樂。現在我慢慢開始懂了，原來我把順序弄反了。我該優先處理的是自己內心的感受，其他人買不買單，其實跟你一點關係都沒有。就像找另外一半，如果我跟夢中情人在一起，但我根本無法在他面前做自己，最後還是會走不下去。

我現在33歲，So What? 終於懂，「當下的自己」才是人生時間軸上最重要的！

對了，有人好奇這次「{}」的意思嗎？簡單說是「大括號」，在數學運算式中稱作「空集合」。數學不好的人就想像一個清空的行李箱吧。「空」不是無，而是無限可能。括號還有另外一個更好懂的意思，就是「優先處理」。將過去整理過後的自己，回歸純粹，態度成熟自信！(失戀後重新出發的人應該很有感觸吧！🤣)

Your best self is not in the future, but in the Now.

Looking back, I seem to have been playing a role in almost every relationship I was ever in. I'm not just talking about romantic relationships. Whether it was with friends or colleagues (especially seniors), I would modify myself almost instinctively. Should my voice be sweeter? My jokes dirtier? If you wanted to know who I was eating with that day, all you had to do was look at the clothes I was wearing.

The changes were subtle, but they still reflected a truth: I didn’t feel like the real me was enough so I was worried that other people would also find her lacking. I told myself that if I just kept working at it, I would someday become a version of Lara that everyone accepted.

Eventually I only knew how to get my cues from the external world. I would always base my next step on feedback I got from others. Most people considered me easy to get along with, but I grew more and more unhappy.

I think I had it all wrong. My first priority should have been listening to my inner voice. Whether or not other people agree with it is not in my control nor of my concern. Take looking for a partner. Even if I found the person of my dreams, it would never last if I couldn’t be myself around them.

I am 33 years old. So What? I finally understand that "the present self" is the most important thing on the timeline of life! It’s time to prioritize me!

By the way, is anyone curious about the meaning of "{}" this time? Besides the more commonly known representation of parentheses as prioritization, these curly brackets are called “the empty set”. The empty what? If like me, math is not your strongest suit, think of it as an empty suitcase. "Empty" doesn’t mean nothing, but infinite possibilities! What will you fill your life with this time?

2021全新專輯《來者何人{}》
數位收聽：https://LaraLiang.lnk.to/DearYou2

<再也沒有你> 陳勢安 Andrew Tan
數位收聽：https://kkbox.fm/Iss26l

#Lara梁心頤2021全新專輯二部曲 #來者何人{} 全球發行
#再也沒有你 #NoMoreU #SoWhat30

《前夕》

♂：早晨

♀：早晨

♂：我想同你講，我好撚緊張

♀：笑，做咩咁緊張啊，講比姐姐聽

♂：聽日我將會見一個好重要既人，仲緊張過見工

♀：你咁直白既，我覺得你份人愈來愈直接

♂：對你我覺得直接好，而你都係喜歡直接，你要我直接讚你，直接講我喜歡你，直接講我心入面既感覺

♀：係啊，所以你做得好好，我好喜歡

♂：你會唔會緊張？

♀：講真，有少少，我怕聽日你見到我會改變左依家我好喜歡既一種關係

♂：我都有少少驚，甚至有諗過，不如唔見，令呢種關係一直維持落去

♀：然後呢

♂：諗完一輪，我覺得關係從來都無永恆，一係昇華，一係流逝，我希望我地可以昇華到另一種關係

♀：咁咪得囉，做人有太多事要面對，逃避只係迴避左問題，有機會引發新既問題，我希望可以同你一齊進步

♂：聽日，你有冇咩計劃？

♀：交比你決定啦，你專業黎喎，我聽日可以完全受你擺佈，呢種機會唔多，你要好好表現啊！

♂：等我諗下……

♀：慢慢

♂：約九龍區可唔可以？12點鐘？

♀：可以啊，我都要花少少時間打扮

♂：要以全盛狀態出現？

♀：當然，要震懾下你！

♂：但我諗住都係好平常咁出現……睇黎我都要執執個樣

♀：你會想我著乜？

♂：唔……我無特殊喜好，你著返平時你會著既就可以

♀：你喜歡裙定係褲？

♂：我喜歡你

♀：好，咁我決定，你唔好後悔啊，你想睇我著乜我有既都可以著比你睇，唔駛講乜唔著最好睇，不過咁低層次既答案，我諗你都唔會犯既

♂：第一次見你，我想見到最你既你

♀：好，咁我就比你睇下我係點既

♂：我諗左個活動，聽日我地唔相認，每人訂一個尋人遊戲，我諗好左我個方式喇，我地聽日係商場入面各自行街，隨心咁影相比對方睇，話比對方知自己係邊，做緊乜，而過程入面，我地需要為對方買一份禮物，影完相就唔可以停留，一定要離開呢一層

♀：聽落好有趣，咁我都諗到我既遊戲係點喇！咁如果比對方搵到的話，有咩獎勵先？

♂：無獎勵，又或者係，想比咩獎勵就比咩獎勵

♀：Challenge accepted

♂：我訂既就係咁多，遊戲以外既，就隨感覺而做吧！

♀：其實我係好隨心既人，但我覺得呢個遊戲好有意思，見唔見，睇緣份

♂：聽日大家全心全意咁享受呢個遊戲就可以！

♀：咁今日就講住咁多先，呢一晚，我地留返少少幻想空間

♂：好，我聽日話你聽，我幻想既係點

♀：時間真係好快，我地竟然會見面

♂：長傾不見，已經打破左一半，而另一半，我希望永遠都留低

♀：我一早就知我地會見，因為否定詞加否定詞，就係肯定詞

♂：係咪即係負負得正

♀：我只可以講，講不見既人，都希望可以見到，只係，將唔想見既人排除在外，可以留低既先係最珍貴

♂：聽日，不見，不散

♀：好，不見，不散

♂：晚安

♀：晚安

♂：明天見

♀：明天見

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長傾·不見 第一回 @筆友
https://bit.ly/LongchatEP1
長傾·不見 第三十三回 @燒書
https://bit.ly/LongchatEP33
好久 不見 第一回@久違
https://bit.ly/LongtimeEP1
好久 不見 第十一回@響
https://bit.ly/LongtimeEP11

#好久不見 #長傾不見

話說前排收到趙增熹監製既電話，問我想唔想接受一個挑戰，就係9月同一大班管弦樂團@inheritphil 一齊做live performance，兼顧既野要好多，因為成隊crew 好多人，綵排既次數會好少，所以事前要準備得好足💪

二話不說challenge accepted 😜👍 多謝呀熹既信任🧡🙏 會負責唱佢曾經得獎既電影配樂🙏 應承左既野 我一定會用心準備 盡力做好💛🙏

#唔好意思個post會出現3次
#因為之前有9格post唔想破壞美感🤣
#完美主義症發作😜
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#傳承愛樂 #趙增熹 #hkorchestra #管弦樂團 #gigiyim #炎明熹 #林君蓮 #沙利文 #Shaliman #rumbu #felixlam
#hksinger #hkperformer #hkigmusic #hkmusic #hkigcover

#炮仔聲 #跟我一起 #宅在家 #完全娛樂
各位寶寶們 歡迎回來～

以前看美劇學英文 現在來看八點檔學英文！

讓你更深入其境！

以下是今天的英文：
（請注意 這邊都是口語化的英文 口語化的英文 文法不會這麼制式化哦！）

今天學到的對話來複習一下：

妍熙 剛才我一直問你說 今天怎麼這麼費工 還約我來餐廳吃燭光晚餐
I kept asking you why did you go through all this today and invited me to a candlelit dinner at the restaurant?

你都不肯跟我說原因
You won’t tell me why.

現在已經吃完了 是不是可以跟我說 到底是為什麼
Now we’re done dinner. Can you please tell me why?

妍熙 你說這句話什麼意思 妍熙 What do you mean by that?
什麼意思你 你要離開我？ What do you mean? You’re leaving me?

不是 你是不是因為 我跟麗玲那晚發生的事情
Wait, is it because of what happened between 麗玲and I that night?

你還在生氣 不肯原諒我 You’re still mad at me? And you won’t forgive me?

不是你別這樣想 No, please don’t think like that.
我一點都不覺得勉強 I don’t feel forced at all.

沒有拉 妍熙 No 妍熙
不好意思 I’m sorry.

因為我之前一直不相信 你的靈魂附身在麗玲身上
Because I wouldn’t believe that 麗玲’s body is possessed by your spirit.

但是我現在非常確定 你就是我的妍熙寶貝
But now I’m so sure that you’re my 妍熙 baby.

所以不管你是附身在麗玲身上
或是附身在誰的身上
So I don’t care if you’re in 麗玲’s body or somebody else’s body.

不管你是高矮胖瘦 I don’t care if you’re tall short fat skinny
是圓是扁 年長或年輕 Round or flat , old or young
只要你是我的妍熙寶貝 as long as you’re my 妍熙寶貝
我都愛你 I love you just the same. （不管你如何我都會一樣愛你的意思）

所以我希望你可以給我一次機會 可以讓我親自證明 用行動來證明說
我是完全接受你 而且非常愛你
So I hope you can give me a chance so I can prove to you. I will show you by actions that I’ve completely accepted you and I love you very much.

只要你別離開我身邊就好了 As long as you don’t leave me.

當然是真的 Of course it’s true.
只要留在我身邊 別離開我就可以了
As long as you stay with me and don’t ever leave me

就算你要用麗玲的身體 跟我生活一輩子
Even if you need to use 麗玲’s body to live with me forever

我也願意 I’m willing to do that.
你不相信的話 我現在馬上跟你求婚
if you don’t believe me I can propose to you right now.

妍熙
雖然我們已經結為夫妻了 Even though we’re already married
但是你願意的話 But if you want to
我可以再次地向你求婚 I can propose to you again.
我可以向你求十遍 百遍 一千遍 我都願意 I can to propose to you ten times, a hundred times a thousand times. I’m willing to do that.
就算你要用麗玲的身體跟我生活一輩子 Even if you need to use 麗玲’s body to live with me forever,
只要你能留在我身邊 不要離開我 這樣我就滿足了
as long as you stay with me and don’t leave me, that’s enough for me.

我相信沒有人有辦法拆散我們兩個了 I believe no one is ever going to tear us apart anymore.

你願不願意接受我的求婚
Will you accept my proposal?

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