how can one stay in love? . berat soalan ni. tapi cantik. terima kasih pd yg bertanya. . i guess, the answer is the same dgn semua benda yg kita nak jaga istiqamah nya; why. . pernah tgk filem kartun the simpson dulu. ada this one scene waktu marge (sang isteri) buat this one video utk suami dia (yg kita semua tau mmg boleh tahan benak). . “lately, what’s keeping us together is my ability to overlook at everything you do. and i overlook these things because—“ . “because…?”, tanya homer (si suami) dgn santai2 gelaknya, expecting typical answers. like love, or memories, etc. . tapi marge termenung. lalu sambung; . “well that’s the thing, i just dont know how to finish that sentence anymore”. . fuhhh. terkedu. . objektif adalah penggerak hidup. in everything, kalau takde intention, takde drive, mmg takkan boleh maintain utk konsisten. . tanyalah mana2 org yg dah jaga 5, yg mmg pelihara tahajjud, dah commit isnin khamis— komfemmm ada hari rasa “hari ni miss one turn lah”. tapi lekas2 lawan. sbb eyes on the prize. agituhhh. haha. . so. again. how can one stay in love? . jawapan dia— WHY do you want to stay in love tu sbnrnya. . sama macam mak abah yg kekal teguh meyakini anak jahatnya akan berubah, sama macam cikgu2 yg terus utuh menunggu anak muridnya akan triumph dari masalah— begitulah. . percaya pada potensi. berbekal daya dan kemampuan diri. dua2 kena ada baru menjadi. . potensi ada, daya tak ada— susah. daya ada, potensi zero— payah. potensi tak ada, daya tak ada— surrender je lah. . kita yg kenal diri kita dan pasangan kita. . how do i stay in love with my suami— is how i imagine he tries being in love with me. . with difficulty, happily. hahahaahah. . lain org lain dugaannya. ada pasangan cemerlang, masalah harta pulak. ada harta berkoyan, takde anak pulak. ada anak berderet, pasangan lesap pulak. . op op op. jgn kompiden pilih2. “aku kalau xde anak xpe lagi. asal harta ada” “aku xde harta ok lagi. asal suami sayang” . ingat. الله duga apa yg kita mampu. dia tak bagi tu, pasal dia tau. kita jgn kompiden benda yg belum berlaku. . apa الله bagi— terima. dgn hepi. . #rideradinda

10 years ago, Coco and I met in a phase of life where our surroundings were I can say, very toxic - but she always stood out as that good hearted, hard working, tough, loving girl. After we met we kicked off and the rest was history. As time went by, she went from a busy/ambitious-driven PR girl, who goes ALL IN and forgets to take care of herself when working - to a life/soul coach, a work-life balanced, subtle yet loving, powerful women that was living the life we both back then, once denied that we deserved. Fast forward to 2020, after my first business failed - I lost confidence in my surroundings, in myself, in relationships and I was living under branches of doubts. I couldn’t help but to surrender and look at myself in the mirror and said “ I AM GOING TO DEAL WITH YOU” . I grabbed my phone and texted Coco, and chose to believe in my own choice - which was to seek consultation from her, which I’m SO glad I did and the right-est thing I ever did. Its been a year and a half now after nearly over 30 hours of soul coaching with her ( an hour every two weeks ) and I am thankful to her and proud to say I have become a more self aware, content, intuitive, strong, less aggressive women thats got both my brains and heart together, functioning pretty well, in a healthy way. My surroundings and my friend circles have changed this past year after I started making right choices that were good for myself and life has been great to me. I believe good friends aren’t just the people that hang out with you everyday but its the ones that has good intentions and holds space for your best interest in their hearts. Sharing this abundance of love with you all. Love you guys!

I am not the kind of girl that wears cropped tops or lets you into the sacred parts of me. The parts the world doesn’t always see. But there’s a revolution in the making. A deep slow rising over the years of beauty from ashes and surrender and learning to unapologetically be wholly here. To take up place in the room. To let my light shine and stand in the light. To champion for so much more. I am learning to be brave. And brave doesn’t always look like a roar, sometimes brave is scared and vulnerable and hopeful all at the same time. Sometimes brave is whispering to myself when I want to delete and hide that a little big girl watches her mama surrender and move and dance and laugh and love and pour and feel it all. That her authenticity does not threaten her attachment because she is safe, seen, loved, wholly here. We jiggle and we praise and pray out loud, we live by faith and not sight, we come home. Over and over again, mama, we’ll come home. To ourselves. To our bodies. To our hearts. To a so big God that calls and redeems and whispers to his Wayfinders, you are the daughter of a King. Adjust your crown, mama and Ella Bella. So we step into our purpose and calling, we ground and practice, we choose to belong. 😭❤️ I wanted to share with you a little podcast I recorded with @the.purpose.effect on building a village and feeling safe, seen, and lovingly held in the raw heartbreak of failure and not enough. Dearest Elena, I will forever treasure this conversation. Thank you for how you so lovingly hold space and share a piece of your heart with the world too. I hope this honest heartfelt mama chat together helps you come home as much as it helped me too. To listen ➡️ https://spoti.fi/3tSzKuR ❤️ #honestmotherhood #respectfulparenting #rachealkwacz