2002年，我拍了人生中第一個廣告。我放棄醫學院，決定當模特兒，結果我馬上爆紅，我爸爸媽媽很為我驕傲，哈哈！開玩笑的啦！故事其實不是這樣的。我放棄醫學院搬來台灣可能是我做過最瘋狂的事之一。當醫生一直以來都是我很有興趣的工作，這不只是一個父母希望我做的職業而已。我全身心地投入上課、實習、學習我未來要做的無國界醫生的工作。
2002: I got my first commercial. I gave up medical school to become a model. I become an overnight success and my parents were so proud of me. NOT! Quitting medical school to move to Taiwan was probably one of the craziest and riskiest things I’ve done in my life. Medicine was always something I personally loved, and not just a professional my parents pushed me towards. I put my heart and soul into getting into medical school and I wanted to travel the world with Medicine San Frontiers.

但是，拍完廣告之後，我很想很想嘗試這個新的”模特兒”工作，不知道為什麼，因為是新的嗎？還是我想要挑戰自己呢？或是想要多待在亞洲旅遊呢？
But I had this nagging itch to try out this whole modeling thing - don’t know what it was. The excitement of something new? The challenge of a different industry altogether? The desire to travel in Asia a bit longer?

最後，我決定放棄醫學院，因為我覺得像這種比較穩定的行業如果我想回去的話都還會在。但”模特兒”這個比較不穩定、特別，而且比較適合年輕時候試試看的行業，如果要做就要趁現在。
Finally, I decided, a career in medicine will still be there in a few years if I wanted it. But this opportunity to try modeling was probably something I should do younger rather than older.

所以，我全心全意跳進去！寄我的”拒絕信”給醫學院(哈哈哈哈哈哈！我的天啊！好難得是我可以”拒絕”，而不是”被拒絕”)。我搬來台灣，開始我的模特兒挑戰之路。我不能說是模特兒事業啦，因為老實說，其實不是那麼順利，也沒有固定的薪水或是工作機會。我為了生活也同時接了很多其他的兼差，像是教英文、當保母、加入小提琴團隊，也繼續在救護團隊工作。
這裡送給你們看看我那時候的樣子，我的天啊！好多不同look喔！那個化妝-Oh My God!
So, i took a leap of faith and sent in my rejection letter (Haha. take THAT medical school. I reject YOU!) and started doing various TV commercials and print ads in Taiwan. I wish I could have said it was a lucrative or even successful career as a model, but honestly, there were more days in between than actual jobs. I had to support myself with a lot of side jobs: teaching English, baby sitting, joining violin performing groups, continuing my work as an EMT, etc. Anyway, here’s just a few of the very VERY varied looks I had back then. The make up…. Holy moly….

IMPOSTER SYNDROME IS REAL!

Imposter Syndrome is the nagging feeling that you’re not good enough to be where you are. The constant fear that one day you’ll be “found out” and everything will be taken away.

One of the biggest causes of imposter syndrome is the underlying limiting belief: “I’m not good enough.”

Because limiting beliefs are unconscious and formed in early childhood, you may not be aware of having it at all.

Suppose you grew up with parents who compared you with other kids. Or parents who rewarded or punished you for your results instead of acknowledging you for your effort. Or parents were never pleased no matter how hard you tried.

You learned from early on that the only way to get love is to achieve. Your self-worth is measured by your achievement.

If you don’t move forward, you fear you’ll be swallowed in a black hole of worthlessness.

*If you don't stop, you’ll burn out or break down sooner or later.*
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We're going to the Zoo, Zoo, Zoo.... and River Safari too? Hip hip hooray!

It was our first time out to an attraction ever since the baby was born and it was no wonder everyone felt excited and enthusiastic about our long-awaited mum-and-kids outing.

I was afraid they might be hungry or thirsty halfway and was not sure what I could buy there so I brought along snacks, fruits and drinks for the kids. We also brought along a stroller, baby carrier, caps, water bottles, umbrellas, sunscreen, repellent, nursing cover, extra clothes for the baby and more.

To be honest, I was hesitant if we could handle everything on our own along with a three-month-old but thanks to the elder ones for helping out, we did it and we stayed from the morning all the way till the parks closed at 6pm, woohoo.

Our lunch was takeaway from KFC and we ate it on a secluded bench (we chose a spot near the washroom so we could wash up easily, haha) after seeing others do likewise too. It turned out to be quite a unique experience and something that the kids will probably remember for a long time.

Despite the occasional nagging, the soiled diapers and stained clothes, having to clean up the mess after a spilled drink and constantly reminding the younger ones not to run off, we had a truly awesome day out and I think the kids totally deserve it after staying home most of the hols.

Like what the kids said at the end of the day "Our feet feels like jelly!" So did mine, my darlings, but to see the smiles on your faces, that was so worthwhile. Till our next fun outing!

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〈嘮叨 Nagging〉

我們在慢慢長大的過程中
常常會失去很多機會
或是做錯了一些決定
這些失去的機會和錯誤的決定漸漸地就會把我們的人生帶到一個想都沒想過的地方。
有些地方我們可以過得很舒服，
有些地方我們根本不認識而且怕的要命，
有些地方雖然不曾見過，但我們還是鼓起勇氣願意試一試。

想說的話到了嘴邊又吞了下去
很多時候不知道為了什麼在努力
我們失去了說不要的權利
不再渴望做人生的決定
我們失去也得到
妥協也面對
多年之後我

年輕的時候我們總是覺得我們的人生是掌握在自己手裡
但是你有沒有想過你這個人的形成
是你的教育
你成長的環境
你的社會和一切影響你的期待
把你塑造成現在的樣子
然後長大以後我們開始需要承擔越來越多的責任
有些是你自願的 有些是逼不得已的
我們開始會為了別人的期待做一些我們根本不想要做的事

還在遷就還在後悔
回憶不走遺憾繼續
掙扎過後廢話道盡
今夜安息

► 音樂製作團隊

詞 Lyrics｜ARNY Wu
曲 Melody｜康士坦的變化球 KST
製作 Producer｜韓立康 GummyBearMan
編曲 Music Arrangement｜康士坦的變化球 KST
和聲編寫 Backing Vocals Arrangement｜ARNY Wu
人聲 Vocals｜康士坦的變化球 KST
電吉他 Electric Guitars｜ARNY Wu、Creed Zhao
貝斯 Bass｜陳佑祥 sionC
鼓組 Drums｜張譯云 Gail米
吉他錄音製作 Guitar Recording Producer｜陳威達 Wei Da Chen
配唱製作人 Vocal Producer｜ 顏靜萱 Ka Ka Yen@ VH
製作助理 Assistant｜趙宇晨

錄音師 Recording Engineer｜ 蔡周翰 ( Vocals/ Guitars)、韓立康 GummyBearMan ( Guitars/ Bass) 、ARNY Wu ( Guitars) 、錢煒安 Zen Chien ( Drums)
錄音室 Recording Studio｜Lights up studio ( Guitars)、蠻好聽音樂工作社 Pretty Good Music ( Guitars)、bb road studio ( Vocals)、阿康工作室 ( Guitars/ Bass) 、112F studio ( Drums)
混音師 Mixing Engineer｜黃文萱 Ziya Huang
混音室 Mixing Studio｜Purring Sound Studio
母帶後期工程師 Mastering Engineer｜Randy Merrill
母帶後期工程 Mastering Studio｜Sterling Sound


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出品人｜陳瑞凱
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藝人經紀｜楊詩薇


► 影像製作團隊

製作｜芳華影像企業社
製片｜李婉甄
後期製作｜動工設計 MOKRAFT
企劃｜江光健、林宗毅
美術｜江光健
動態｜江光健
攝影｜江光健

#'90年にT&E SOFTが発売した、オリジナルとなる88用ARPG。
光と闇の間に存在するルーンワースと呼ばれる世界を舞台に絶対神イアティルスの誕生と共に物語は始まる。
レベルアップはイベントやアイテムで行う為、戦闘は最低限でも進められる。

その壮大な世界観は豪華製本解説書にも表れているが、後にゲームデザインの内藤氏は本作を"変にストーリー付けに凝った為、思った試みは失敗した"と、考案したシステムが快適さや面白さに結び付かなかった事を悔いている。

BGMはT&E在籍時の富田氏、長谷川氏による共同作曲で、音源にはopn版、opna版が存在する。

Manufacture: 1990.01.12 T&E SOFT
Computer: PC-8801mkIISR series
Sound: YM2608 (Sound Board II)
Composer: Shigeru Tomita,Kazunori Hasegawa
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00:00:00 01.The Downfall of Saris (サリスの滅亡)
00:02:49 02.Theme of Rune Worth (ルーンワースのテーマ)
00:05:51 03.Departure (旅立ち)
00:07:15 04.Zanoba Fortress (ザノバ砦)
00:09:57 05.Holy Thia Kingdom (神聖サイア王国)
00:12:50 06.Weidenitz Park (ウェイデニッツ公国)
00:14:26 07.Bahaman Principality (バハマーン神国)
00:16:41 08.Shatabarsa Commonwealth (シャタパーサ連邦)
00:19:21 09.Wedel Mountains (ウェーデル山脈)
00:21:41 10.King (おーたま)
00:23:23 11.Prayer (祈り)
00:25:06 12.What a Waste (もったいない)
00:27:08 13.For The Sake of a Man from Time (5時からの男のために)
00:28:50 14.Died (死んでしまった)
00:30:57 15.Sad (「KANA-P」)
00:32:59 16.More Sad (もっと KANA-P)
00:34:22 17.Happy (URE-P)
00:36:28 18.Mirim is A.d.u.l.t.s (ミリムはオ・ト・ナ)
00:38:04 19.Uwaraba! (うわらば)
00:39:03 20.Nagging of The Gods (神々のガミガミ)
00:42:07 21.Danger is Dangerous (危険がアブナイ)
00:43:56 22.Permafrost (永久凍土)
00:46:16 23.Oorumamu's Ambition (オールマムの野望)
00:48:03 24.Shudder of The Magician (戦慄の魔導)
00:50:26 25.Mystic Tower (あやかしの塔)
00:52:42 26.Sutters' Guidance (サータルスの導き)
00:54:50 27.Outlaw City (無法都市)
00:57:01 28.Lumas Kaeru Burns (ラマスカエル燃ゆ)
00:58:54 29.Tear of Eris (エリースの涙)
01:01:34 30.Asassination Sorcery Team Vifo (暗殺魔術団ヴィーフォ)
01:03:55 31.Escape from The Darkness (暗黒からの脱出)
01:05:57 32.The Battle of Evermore (限りなき戦い)
01:07:46 33.Revival of The Evil God (邪神復活)
01:09:52 34.Peaceful (やすらぎ)
01:13:58 35.Tomorrow Look Back (明日がふり返る)
01:16:21 36.Game Over(ゲームオーバー/サントラ未収録)
01:16:33 37.Fanfare (ファンファーレ)
01:16:39 38.Jingle 1 (ジングル 1)
01:16:43 39.Jingle 2 (ジングル 2)
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How you like some of your own medicine! Sike, my parents don't even give me medicine, just ask me drink water.... HAPPY CNY EVERYONE, HOPE EVERYONE HUAT HUAT, but make sure y'all staying safe still~!

Written by:
Thomas the danK engineeee @HeyThomasK
Beautiful awesome fantastic baoss lady Lingyi Xiong @Blingyi

Filmed and Edited by:
Jason Hau now brown cow @jasonkokotan

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