距離上則貼文消失大概快隔兩個月了，
掙扎了一年多近期才去看身心科，
治療也大概滿一個月，情況好了許多~
（醫生說吃藥需要吃半年～一年（昏）
想上來跟大家聊聊自己的近況##
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這1-2年，
追蹤許久的老朋友一定不難發現我的更新情況持續在下降，
這兩年面臨畫不出來的情況，加上一些私人的事情
（感覺都是混在一起互相影響）
導致焦慮跟憂鬱症狀增加，睡眠品質延重下降
因為這樣更無法畫圖構思劇情，
自己擅長的事情變得失控是件一件非常恐懼的事，
憂鬱焦慮症狀出現真的啥都干不了，真的!!（認真）
還好診斷並沒有得焦慮或憂鬱症，
目前有過兩次恐慌症的情形發生。
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經過一個月治療情況有慢慢改善
未晨目前咖啡的情況還無法寫出真的很抱歉QQ
不過短篇能好好的編排出來了，
今年暑假新刊正在進行中~
雖然工作時間還是很短（現在只要持續構思額頭就會劇烈疼痛，還不能確定能不能趕上CWT委託寄攤）
因為是分上下集，
所以日後要如何販售或陸續連載還在考慮當中😇
（最後結尾給 Kakitono 肆顆柿廚輩糧倉 ：貼文寫這麼多字已經是我的極限了，YOU WIN）

#換位思考 及 #同理心
也許是各位公主👸婚後當人妻、當媳婦、當媽媽後才能體會，男女平等之同樣是各位王子🤴婚後當人夫、當女婿、當爸爸後才能了解！

媽媽們不只是對孩子母愛噴發，為人處世態度更加溫潤和善良，雖然我們常被孩子教育和家務雜事勞其筋骨，身材走樣讓我們少了一點自信，8年前我也才42kg，年紀大了新陳代謝慢了點，推薦宜蘭頭城新秘境，龜山島最佳拍攝地點－里山，不只風景優美還可以賞男神肌👀
品嚐美食或喝杯咖啡☕️ 漫步森林賞植物賞蝴蝶🦋親近大自然，多運動流流汗腦內啡一百分💯

本位思考也沒錯，沒同理心也可以，只是大家遠離你😆 自己的人生自己走，自己的人生自己負責😅
看了 #馥蘭朵宜蘭里山藝境 表演，除了很熱汗流一斤，但內心收獲滿滿🥰

馥蘭朵烏來渡假酒店，致力營造讓旅人安身、靜心、神寧的休閒空間和旅遊體驗，在殷勤、魅力、獨特、寧靜、美食方面的卓越呈現及服務品質，成為飯店借米其林之稱的Relaus & Chateaux(羅萊夏朵)台灣唯二的會員。

里山 Satoyama 源自於日本實現人與自然和諧共生的理念。馥蘭朵里山藝術文化園，實踐資源循環利用，推動自然美學，以生活儀式藝術展演，讓旅人擁抱自然，體悟生命價值。

里山之道，享受自然的召喚，在鑼聲洗滌心靈的塵埃後，觀賞里川中的生命劇場，在瀑布下的缽聲中沉澱心靈，體驗蛹之生的奧秘，蓮霧樹下棋不語，最後望遠龜山絕景，欣賞氣勢奔騰的鼓聲在山海間對話環繞。

另外，還有超美味套餐及螃蟹博物館，這次時間有限下回再分享😘

影片最後為大家爭取攝影大師 黃仁益，來教平凡不專業的我們，如何使用手機不修圖就可以拍出IG網美照，撫慰我們內心深處許久不見的少女心💗我們不是網美，但誰不喜歡變美一點，叫老公學起來😆 來這麼美的地方，一定要好好拍照留念📸

下次邀請演員Win許慧盈來教我們和孩子如何自信表達及演繹小劇場好嗎😘 媽媽每天跟老公、長輩、孩子玩鬥智遊戲，我們一定要學～

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感謝 馥蘭朵邀請、演員Win許慧盈、攝影大師 黃仁益、玩樂主播 郭人榮。

【堅持】Tenacity (English writing below)

我出道至今，沒有打過廣告來推銷自己。

前天，有位友人問我，我的自然流量是否能為我提供源源不斷的客人。

我說，今年六月尾起，就在Youtube每週固定更新影片，加上搬進一間旺財運的家，來找我的客人便越來越多。

友人說，為我高興。

網路上寫佛法，說玄學容易嗎？

不容易，永遠也不會容易。

有人一毛不拔，跑来問免費的資訊，然後一句「謝謝你！」就想了事。

有人說我是騙子，設立四五個假戶口來假交友真試探。

有人拿我文章來抹黑，突顯自己的睿智，提高臉書按讚率。

有人常常在我臉書按讚留言，但內心裡一直與我較量，發簡訊告訴我師父希望我有不好的下場。

更有人在男性論壇裡放上我的Youtube影片，菜市場般的議論紛紛，有的自看自嗨，有的褒貶不一。

這些人間的遊戲，不關我的事，也不會讓我「退道心」而不幹，因為無論是善緣或惡緣、都是緣。套師尊的一句話，最怕是沒有緣。那能怎麼度？

有時覺得走到今天不容易，可有時也覺得猶如一場夢，一下子便會消失了。

就算是一場夢，我也想在夢中修功德。

人生很多的成就，是堅持出來的。我師父，玳瑚師父 Master Dai Hu，是如此，我師尊，聖尊蓮生活佛，更是如此。

但很多人堅持最久的，就是堅持不下去。

親愛的讀者，謝謝你們多年來對我的堅持，堅持在我的文章、影片上按讚、留言和分享，沒有排斥我，沒有不想別人知道你認識我的思想。

你們在我心中一直有著特別的位置。你們對我的堅持，是我力量和正能量的來源。我許多客人也是因為你們的堅持，才認識到我，進而得到我的幫助。

我不是天生的演說家，但我的演我的說，好比台下十年功。我的演說不爲名成與利就，衹爲演表我智慧，說示我关懷，解妳你一分懮愁，增妳你一分喜樂。

當你們看到我的堅持，認同我的堅持，又感染到我的堅持時，我期待你們也能得到動力，堅持活出你自己的人生，不被「壞人」打到 😄，將來也能擁有屬於自己的榮耀與光輝。🌟

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Since my debut, I had never used ads to promote myself.

Last Sunday, a FB friend asked me, if my organic posts could still bring me a steady stream of clients.

I replied, since my weekly Youtube uploads began in end June, and me moving into a home with Feng Shui that brings me wealth luck, inquiries and clients have been increasing.

My friend expressed happiness for me.

Is it easy to write and speak about Dharma and Chinese Metaphysics on the Internet?

No. Never will be.

I have met freeloaders, who try their luck at asking questions about their lives, and then reward me with a mere "Thanks". (how casual)

I have met people who accused me being a scammer, and set up four to five accounts to befriend me on the surface, but wanted to carry out their investigations on me.

I have met people who used my articles to defame me, so as to showcase their smartness to their readers and win more Likes.

There are people who always Like and comment on my posts, but inside the heart, they are contesting with me and have sent text messages to my Shifu, hoping that I come to a bad end.

And there are people who embedded my Youtube video on a men's forum. Discussions about me and the video content went rife like a wet market. Some men got "high" watching the video, while some busied with passing good and bad reviews.

Such games of the mortal world are none of my business, and I certainly would not lose heart over these and call it quits. Because whether it is a good affinity or a negative one, it remains an affinity. Like what my Grandmaster said, the fear is the greatest when there is zero affinity, for how are you going to deliver the sentient being?

Sometimes I look back and think it is really not easy to have come so far, but at times it feels like a dream, which will be over in the blink of an eye.

Even if it is a dream, I still wish to cultivate my merits in this dreamlike state.

In Life, many accomplishments are achieved through sheer perseverance. Both my Shifu, Master Dai Hu, and Grandmaster His Holiness Living Buddha Lian-Sheng, are sterling personifications of these traits

However for many people, the longest they ever persevere on, is their inability to persevere for long.

My dear reader, thank you for your perseverance towards me, for giving me your Likes, comments and shares. No discrimination of me, no embarrassment of being associated with me.

You always have a special place in my heart. Because of your perseverance towards me, I have gained much strength and positive energy from you too. Many of my clients know me and receive my help, because of your perseverance in me.

I’m not a great speaker or writer by birth. But there lies a decade of practice behind my speaking and writing abilities. I did not write or speak to pursue fame and money, but to present my wisdom and express my concern, reduce your troubles and bring joy and happiness to you.

During those moments when you witness my determination, stood by my perseverance, and get infected with my tenacity, I sincerely hope this will fuel your motivation to persevere and live Life to your full potential. Don't get defeated by the "bad eggs". 😄 In time to come, you shall also have your own special honour and glory. 🏆🎖💪