Lengthy post but here’s childbirth in a nutshell for me.

Contractions started at 2.30am, thought it was a tummy ache, pooped like 3-4 times 💩, realised after it isn’t just a tummyache and it was really contractions.(By the way I think my water bag broke at this period and it probably trickled like pee so I had no clue, there wasn’t some drama story of water bag breaking in public lol)
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Admitted to the hospital at 4.30am, turns out I’m 3-4cm dilated already but epidural couldn’t be administered as they couldn’t really feel her heartbeat. As epidural causes babies to be sleepy, they won’t give it to me till they feel it being constant. (I knew she was okay, you know that mama gut feeling, she was just hiding way too low in my cervix)
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Finally at 6.30am, I got the epidural and I was SCREAMING in pain that the doctor had to give me painkillers before my epidural. Got it, finally, and the pushing started at 8am ish? I was 8-9cm at 6.30am already!!!
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It was kinda intense cuz I don’t know (as I was half numbed) if I was pushing the baby out, or holding her in. So almost an hour of pushing the nurse said if I don’t push her out they may use vacuum/forceps. And then.... I freaked.
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In my head I didn’t want her head to be weird, so I started thinking to myself, IMMMMAAA SHIT THIS BABY OUT literally cuz that’s what they say to push the baby out! “Think of it as if you want to shit!!”
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Lol. And by 9.23am, she’s out, I’m mad ass tired, physically and mentally, and I still can’t believe I pushed Gemma out of my vayjayjay.
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But hey, here’s a 13 day post partum body shot because, life is that realistic, I am trying to get my body back in shape. Please don’t judge. 😕

Was going through my gallery and realised that I haven’t shared about my first experience leading a Zumba workout in public. Well, not exactly, leading, but more like assisting a professional instructor during my last gig of 2018.

I was aware of my role however I didn’t know any of the steps until I arrived for rehearsal. I was walked through the steps an hour before the session and of course, I looked pretty clueless. But I know, I needed to roll up my sleeves and get the show going no matter how dumb I might look.

At first, I was a little concerned about my stamina because I haven’t worked out in 4 months due to my injury. I suffered a slight tear at meniscus and had a minor slipped disc.
10 mins into the workout, I felt like I was running out of breath but I didn’t wanna show how tired I was because... of my petty ego 😅

As mentioned by Darlene, the instructor, one very important rule to follow when doing Zumba is to SMILE ◡̈
So for most part of the workout, I was smiling on the outside but dying on the inside 😅

And guess what? I had one of the most amazing experiences ever. I felt alive (again) when sweat trickled down my face and I was drenched in sweat! So much joy and satisfaction which I hadn’t had in a while.
Even though I may looked like a silly potato dancing on the platform, trying to keep up with the steps while ‘looking professional’, I had a whale of a time!
This makes me realised that, when you approach everything with a light heart and as if it’s a big experiment, then it’s not that big of a deal if things don’t work out.
After all, if you can’t laugh at yourself, who can you laugh at? 😉

Thanks for reading my long ass post and by know, you should know that I can’t dance to save my life! 😅
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A big shout out to #adidasMY for always getting my workout outfits covered! ❤️

Was going through my gallery and realised that I haven’t shared about my first experience leading a Zumba workout in public. Well, not exactly, leading, but more like assisting a professional instructor during my last gig of 2018.

I was aware of my role however I didn’t know any of the steps until I arrived for rehearsal. I was walked through the steps an hour before the session and of course, I looked pretty clueless. But I know, I needed to roll up my sleeves and get the show going no matter how dumb I might look.

At first, I was a little concerned about my stamina because I haven’t worked out in 4 months due to my injury. I suffered a slight tear at meniscus and had a minor slipped disc.
10 mins into the workout, I felt like I was running out of breath but I didn’t wanna show how tired I was because... of my petty ego 😅

As mentioned by Darlene, the instructor, one very important rule to follow when doing Zumba is to SMILE ◡̈
So for most part of the workout, I was smiling on the outside but dying on the inside 😅

And guess what? I had one of the most amazing experiences ever. I felt alive (again) when sweat trickled down my face and I was drenched in sweat! So much joy and satisfaction which I hadn’t had in a while.
Even though I may looked like a silly potato dancing on the platform, trying to keep up with the steps while ‘looking professional’, I had a whale of a time!
This makes me realised that, when you approach everything with a light heart and as if it’s a big experiment, then it’s not that big of a deal if things don’t work out.
After all, if you can’t laugh at yourself, who can you laugh at? 😉

Thanks for reading my long ass post and by know, you should know that I can’t dance to save my life! 😅
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A big shout out to #adidasMY for always getting my workout outfits covered! ❤️