（這是一篇很感人的故事，含友誼含愛情，請打開中文在下面哈囉🥺） There was one time, I found that he was sick, so I made porridge, soup right away, grabbed some meds from the store, hopped in the uber and delivered those to his place, even skipped my class then. There was another time, that I know he really loved something, but was too expensive to buy, so I bought it as a birthday gift for him after, though I could barely afford it too. This kind of things happened a lot before. A LOT. I used to spend a lot of time taking care of others, no matter emotionally or physically. The thing is, I rarely took care of myself. I didn’t prioritize my own needs. One time, I was sick and had a fever. Working in my own apartment, alone, had runny nose, feeling miserable. Then, my door bell rang, it was UberEats that I didn’t even order. I kindly sent him away saying it was probably a mistake. Next minute, I got a text. ‘Yo, that chicken soup was for you you idiot! I ordered FOR YOU’ It turned out that my friends knew I was feeling awful, and without family or anyone by my side, so she ordered me something to take care of me. Then she texted, ‘I want you to know that you deserve to be treated right. You NEED to treat yourself right.’ You, yourself is the most important things in the world. Since then, I prioritize myself, my needs, my emotions, my everything. I started to believe that I deserve to be treated right, but first, I need to treat myself right. 我曾經因為對方發燒，在家裡立刻煮了一鍋粥，坐著UBER趕去。也曾經知道對方喜歡一個很貴重的東西，遲遲不敢下手，而我在生日的時候買來當禮物給他。要說起這些「母性光輝」發起的時刻，在我27歲以前的人生，還真的抱歉太多耶！哈哈哈。 以前我花了很多時間，在照顧別人身上，不管是情緒也好，還是健康也罷，但我卻常忘記照顧自己，把自己的情緒、把自己的需求擺在最後。 記得有一次生病發燒了，自己一個人在公寓裡，還包著貨流著鼻涕，這時候突然電鈴響起，是UBEREATS，我當下愣住想著：「我剛沒有訂Ubereats...吧？沒有燒成腦袋壞掉....吧。」我和快遞員說應該是搞錯了，他摸摸鼻子離開。 下一秒我收到了一封訊息：「欸欸！白癡喔，那是我訂給你的雞湯啦！」 原來是某個好朋友知道我身體不舒服一個人住，所以幫我訂了雞湯，而且他非常清楚知道，我並沒有好好照顧自己。 ：「我要妳知道，妳也是值得被好好照顧對待的。」 從那時候開始，慢慢的我開始懂得把自己的需求當作需求，把自己的身心狀況擺在第一位，相信自己值得被好好對待，但首先，我要先好好照顧自己。 喔對了那位朋友就是 @sharonhuang_ ，請掌聲鼓勵😭 我要好好感謝有黃歆媛這樣的朋友出現在我生命中，持續的提醒我的價值。 #Venice #LA #LosAngeles