［知行合一］（六之四）

國安法第一審繼續就「光復香港。時代革命」八個字的意義，繼續進行討論。控方由嶺大學者劉智鵬以歷史學者身份，早前指出「光時」有分裂國家意思；而辯方的港大學者李詠怡 (Eliza)則已作供進入第三天。今天下午，和Eliza一起撰寫專家證人報告的另一位學者，中大新傳學院教授李立峯(Francis)開始作供。

由於辯方兩位專家的姓氏同為「李」，「雙李」容易引起混淆。甫坐下，高個子的李立峯教授說，他想用Eliza稱呼李詠怡教授，獲法庭接納。

李立峯解釋，Eliza專長政治學，故對政治選舉及相關理論熟悉。而Francis自己則是傳播學教授，辯方劉偉聰大狀在庭上先介紹Francis， 指出他畢業於史丹福大學，博士論文研究美國9.11事件中，比較報紙讀者來信和網上論壇的言論，專研範圍為「政治傳播學」。

Francis曾出版學術著作，有講述雨傘運動與傳播關係，將出版另一本書，談及六四紀念活動的集體港人記憶現象，「我對香港近年的大型社會運動，有現代歷史脈絡的理解」。Francis亦曾於2017年成為香港法庭歷史上第一位以「民意研究專家」，為佔中九子案擔任專家證人。以往，香港法庭專家證人多為醫生及物理學家等。

三位法官表示接納Francis的專家證人身份。今天在大狀袍下穿了條子花紋西裝褲的劉偉聰大狀，溫文向法官們道謝：「I am grateful」.

Francis花了頗長時間，解釋社會科學中，量化研究（大型民調）和質化研究（焦點小組）的方法論及兩者作為理解社會現像的用途。

由於過往香港法庭甚少傳召社會科學家作專家證人，三位法官發問了很多問題。唯一男性法官陳嘉信說：「我是laymen（普通人）有這些問題」；女法官杜麗冰亦在休庭前向主問劉偉聰說笑：「對不起我們打斷了你的發問。」

休庭前，三位法官先後向Francis多次問及社科研究法的疑問。Francis越答越興起，語速快了。控方周天行說：「教授請說慢一點。」Francis說笑：「我教書時，學生經常說我說得太快。」此時法庭響起了輕鬆的笑聲。

Francis說，他們進行了的量化研究，就是於2019年從連登討論區上，以電腦程式，抽取討論區上曾提及口號相關的帖子，抽取的口號分別為「光復香港」、「時代革命」、「香港獨立」、「港獨」、「五大訴求」。由於連登上的留言量可以數以百萬計，需要由懂寫電腦程式的學者作技術上協助，他再進行統計學分析。法官們沒有太多發問。

Francis說：「看數字，以數量計，量化研究(quantitative research)就可以處理，但要看人們怎樣建構意義，那要進行質化研究，因為做簡單問卷，是不可以看到意義建構的過程。此時要靠質化研究(qualitative research)，我們做了焦點小組(focus group)。」

七個焦點小組，每個有五至八人參加，三組是包含了不同年齡性別職業的市民，四組是參與者背景相近的小組，一組是社工，一組是老師，一組是年輕人。總共有40人參加焦點小組，都是在反修例運動期間，有參與示威或同情反修例運動的人。「因為我們要看示威者在想甚麼。」

三位法官發問頗頻密，其中，陳嘉信問，焦點小組只有四十人那麼少，如何有代表性？Francis解釋，質化研究是找「意義成形的過程」，代表性則由量化研究補充：「所以我們用不同研究方法互補不足。」

法官對社會現象的理解，和社科學者明顯有差別。

陳官問道：「參加焦點小組的人，會不會心裡想一樣，答你說另一樣？好像美國選舉你問選民選誰，可能他因為尷尬告訴你一個答案，但去到票站就投另一個。」陳法官形容，這是一個「危險」(danger).

作為社會科學學者，Francis這樣回應：「我不看成一種『危險』，因為人是複雜的動物，人的腦子裡不只有『單一的真相』，面對不同人，在不同處境，會影響人如何建構意義。從社會學及人類學角度，人們會在不同處境『管理自己的形像』，我會形容為因應處境而作出的『調整』，而不是在直白地說謊」。

Francis繼續解釋，「而建構意義是一個過程，同一個人在不同時候，他的想法也有改變。像我們現在在討論『甚麼是焦點小組』，我們（他和法官們）也在集體參與意義建構的過程。」

此時，Francis引述了焦點小組裡，其中一個焦點小組參與者，對「光時」口號的理解，隨時間而出現改變。

Francis在庭上說，其中一個支持反修例運動的焦點小組參與者說：

「最初我面對『光復香港。時代革命』這口號，我說不出口。為何呢？因為我最初認為這口號與『港獨』有關，好像要推翻政府，這不是我的目的，我不支持港獨的。但隨着反修例運動發展下，我理解這個運動是關於爭取普選，關於愛好自由，公義。漸漸我可以喊出口了。這個口號好像承載了一種精神。當我去到集會現場，我喊『光時』口號時，我會覺得和其他香港人連繫起來。」

Francis解釋：「這是一個好例子，這個人最初覺得，『嘩，光時口號好激進』，但漸漸他覺得意義改變了。即使他不支持港獨，他也會嗌這口號。」

「這例子正正示範了，口號的意義建構過程，可以如此複雜，豐富，充滿餘韻(nuances).」Francis說。

Francis還引述了華盛頓大學政治學教授Lance Bennett對政治口號的見解 “Effective political themes and slogans invite people to bring their own meaning to a situation. Thus, an image is an impression anchored partly in symbolic suggestion and partly in the feelings and assumptions that people have in response to that suggestion.”

(有效的政治口號邀請人們把他們自己的意義加諸其上。所以，一個影象像個錨，作為一個符號提示人們把自己的感受及假設投射到其中。)

Francis亦說，焦點小組中發現，只有部份人認為「光時口號」與港獨有關，所以口號是開放式的。「總的來說，光時口號就是關於一些失去的東西，而人們覺得需要改變。至於失去了甚麼又如何改變，則因人而異。」

法官們亦用法律用語詢問，焦點小組裡會否有「引導性問題」（leading question），即因為主持者主動提起「港獨」而引導被訪者去提及這個答案。這顯然是法庭常關注點。

但Francis說，焦點小組做法是開放讓大家討論，「而進行焦點小組時間正好在2019年9月，那時基本上整個社會都在討論這句口號的意思，是否和港獨有關。所以在焦點小組裡不需要提示，就會自然進行討論。」

法庭場境裡，引導性問題，會是法官關注的事。

這天早上，李詠怡(Eliza)教授，繼續接受控方盤問。Eliza早前曾說過，為甚麼「光時」口號在7月21日於社會流行起來，其中一個原因是因為人們對「元朗襲擊」感到憤怒，需要一個口號去表達其情緒。

然而代表律政司的署理刑事檢控專員周天行， 則挑戰Eliza，周專員多次指，7月21日口號最初出現於白天，當時中聯辦被示威者包圍，國徽被損毁，當時中聯辦外牆上更出現「光時」口號，周專員指，「光時」口號的意義，應該與中聯辦事件有關。

控方的周專員說：「中聯辦外示威中，清楚反映拒絕中華人民共國和政府的意思，你為何不認為這些示威活動的意義，有助我們脈絡性地理解口號的意思？」周專員亦呈上了多張中聯辦被損毁的照片叫Eliza細看。

Eliza指，她和研究伙伴，曾在7.21後，嘗試從數據了解為何當天之後，光時口號的使用明顯更普遍。於是她從兩張報紙裡，點算傳媒提及過的地區，發現「元朗」字眼出現的頻率，要比「西環」、「中聯辦」及「上環」高出很多。

「媒體注意力反映公眾注意力，而焦點小組發現，7.21大家一致是關注警察暴力，而不是關注中聯辦。故此我們認為令到7.21口號普及化，元朗事件比中聯辦事件重要得多。」Eliza說。

Eliza早前指，梁天琦在造勢晚會曾引述過美國黑人民權領袖Malcolm X說「the Ballot or the Bullet」意思，Eliza認為「子彈」只是比喻，並非像控方專家劉教授所說有「武器」的意思。控方更指控梁天琦有意推翻政權。Eliza當時更說，以她所知， Malcolm X不是「分裂國家主張者」(secessionist)。

周專員今日呈上Malcolm X的1964年的演講，讀出部份內容，又追問Eliza知否Malcolm X被指為 “separatist”和知否Malcolm X曾經加入激進伊斯蘭組織。

Eliza語氣有點難以置信地反問：「我們是否要進入複雜的美國種族歷史？美國黑人民族主義(black nationalist)和非洲裔美國人那時的分離主義（separatism）, 尤其是於種族隔離(apartheid)的過去有多複雜?要研讀多少歷史脈絡？」

周堅持追問：「那Malcolm X是不是分離主義者？」

Eliza沒好氣答: 「若是說建立一個有主權的國家這個理解下，我認為不是。」

周專員仍在要求Eliza看Malcolm X說話節錄。此時，彭官要求暫停提問，三位法官退後座椅商議一會，然後彭寶琴說，Malcolm X是否分離主義者，與本案案情「拉扯得太遠」（far far removed）, 彭官提醒周專員，Eliza一直不反對梁天琦在選舉演說中對港獨持正面看法。

周專員另一處的追問，把梁天琦與Eliza拉得更近，問答更有火花。周專員引述去年夏天來自《眾新聞》的報導，報導中訪問了三位學者，表達學者們對泛民立法會議員在政府表示因疫情把選舉延期一年後，是否應該總辭。

報導中，Eliza認為議員應該留任，訪問中提到議會是重要「抗爭陣地」「在威權政治下，策略上考慮比民主原則更重要……」周專員反問，梁天琦進入議會，會否也像她所說的一樣，「具策略意義，目的是去推翻政權」？

Eliza罕見地光火起來：「你在引述我？你是否在說我和梁天琦是一伙？說我和他是同黨？(You suggest I am part of his cohort?)……好了，現在我被審訊，我要回答吧？ (I am the person on trial, I have to answer this……)」辯方劉大狀立即站起來抗議，指Eliza是來做證人的。

此時彭寶琴語氣溫和地望着Eliza說：「不是的，妳是來作供，提供專家意見給法庭。請不要覺得來被審判，這不是原來的意思。」彭官打圓場道：「我想周先生要想問妳，會不會梁天琦進入立法會，覺得策略上可以作出改變，而不是留在結構以外。」

Eliza鬆了一口氣，望着彭官說了幾聲：「感謝妳的澄清，感謝。」然後Eliza詳細解釋，她在泛民總辭上的看法，已經算是「溫和派」，因為當時社會上較激進的想法，是主張泛民議員一起總辭以表示對選舉延期的不滿。而Eliza說，我主張泛民留任，是希望有議員監察政府，希望加強政府問責性。

現在仍身陷囹圄的梁天琦，始終成為庭上反覆被斟酌的客體。

Eliza今日完成作供前，有機會詳細解釋，她作為政治學者，如何理解梁天琦為何要使用「光時」口號。Eliza解釋，2016年梁天琦參加的是新界東補選，和以往立法會選舉不同，選舉制度是「單議席單票制」，並非「比例代表制」。

「比例代表制」之下，勝選者需要的票數不需很多，只拿取選票一成也可以拿到席位。然而補選的規則，則是誰多選票誰便勝出，故要爭取選票數量。

Eliza說，回看2016新東補選中，參選者多達6人，當中梁天琦的對手，有知名度高的政黨領袖，梁天琦當時相比之下，是一個無人認識的小伙子，只有大學宿生會經驗，或參加過一些小型社會運動，但知名度不高。「他需要設計一個非常搶耳的口號，以拿得最多的票數。」

Eliza指，一個知名度不夠的參選者，設計口號會有「不成比例地戲劇化」的情況(dramatizing out of proportion)，故此梁天琦即使說「選票就是子彈」是一種誇張的說法而已。

Eliza進一步指出：「很多提倡港獨的政治組織，大部份沒有具體的行動計劃，只是口說『香港獨立』」。法官彭寶琴補充：「妳所說的沒有具體行動計劃，是在公眾知道的情況下沒有而已。」

Eliza再補充：「究竟（這些組織主張的）是和平遊說，還是使用暴力或武裝力量？沒有看到這些（資訊）。」

今次被告唐英傑的電單車上，插着旗幟的版本，除了有「光時」這個八字中文口號，亦有七字英文“Liberate Hong Kong, Revolution of our Times”，中英文版本均在法庭反覆被檢驗。辯方學者卻說，原來口號的出現，並非有明確的設計時刻，或單一設計者。

彭官曾詢問，英語口號如何出現， “Liberate Hong Kong, Revolution of our Times”那裡來？彭官留意到梁天琦2016年造勢晚的佈景板已出現這七個英文字。

但Eliza指出，她曾經從梁天琦遞交給選管會的個人簡介中，找到「光時」的英文版，卻是被譯成「Ignite Revolution to Reclaim Our Age.」對於造勢晚會和選管會的文宣為何有差異，Eliza說她不知道。

而Eliza亦曾找遍不同資料，去嘗試看看梁天琦當初創作「光時」口號的原意，但發現他除了在晚會說過，口號不想專注「世代」差別，除此之外，她沒找到更多解釋。不過Eliza說，原來梁天琦最初創作了另一個八字口號，但她認為，梁天琦最初的口號不搶耳，不令人留下深刻印像。

「選舉口號要搶耳，要令人容易記起這個參選人，而原來梁天琦最初設計的口號很悶蛋，孩子氣得像大學活動口號一樣。」

原來，於社會掀起沸沸揚揚的談論，在2019年反修例運動中被廣泛流傳過，今天被法庭研究是否違反國安法的八個字口號，並不是梁天琦最初的構思。

此時，Eliza翻查文件找到了紀錄，並以廣東話在高等法院朗讀出，梁天琦最初曾經構思，但最後放棄了的意念。這個被埋葬了的口號，原來一樣是八個大字：「知行合一，世代革新」。

如果歷史有如果，假若「光時」沒有出現過，今日香港的光景又會如何？

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國安法首審專家證人系列（六之一）：［Regime & Redeem］
7月2日控方專家劉智鵬作供
https://www.facebook.com/wwviviantam/photos/a.1435553239866430/4210137115741348/

國安法首審專家證人系列（六之二）：［Just Do it］
7月9日辯方專家李詠怡作供
https://www.facebook.com/wwviviantam/photos/a.1435553239866430/4229321820489544/

國安法首審專家證人系列（六之三）：［過去與未來］
7月12日辯方專家李詠怡作供
https://www.facebook.com/wwviviantam/photos/a.1435553239866430/4237523026336090/

國安法首審專家證人系列（六之四）：［知行合一］
7月13日辯方專家李詠怡及李立峯作供
https://www.facebook.com/wwviviantam/photos/a.1435553239866430/4240215429400183/

國安法首審專家證人系列（六之五）：［沒有誰比誰高貴］
7月14日辯方專家李立峯作供
https://www.facebook.com/wwviviantam/photos/a.1435553239866430/4243328702422189/

國安法首審專家證人系列（六之六）：［選櫻桃的人］
7月15日辯方專家李立峯作供
https://www.facebook.com/wwviviantam/photos/a.1435553239866430/4245860505502342/

（圖為辯方第二位專家證人，中大新傳學院教授李立峯離開高院，明天他會繼續作供）

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而不同颜色可能隐喻着你目前状态。
不同顏色代表不同意思。
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The meanings associated with color in Christian worship, art, architecture and design are summarized as follows:

Yellow
This is the symbol of light and purity. It speaks of youth, happiness, the harvest, hospitality, love and benevolence. But since it is also taken as off-white, it can be the color of degradation or cowardice.

Orange
Symbolic of endurance and strength, orange is the color of fire and flame. it represents the red of passion tempered by the yellow of wisdom. It is the symbol of the sun.

Green
Green symbolizes the breaking of shackles, freedom from bondage. It is the color of fertility. In the Christian context, it represents bountifulness, hope and the victory of life over death. It is one of the colors associated with Christmas, and the long season of the Trinity in summer.

Red
Signifies action, fire, charity, spiritual awakening. It also glorifies the sun and the joy of life and love. In the Christian symbolism, it denotes Holy Spirit. It is the color of Pentecost.

Black
Said to represent the absolute, constancy, eternity or the womb, black may also denote death, fear and ignorance. Black is the liturgical color of Good Friday.

Brown
Brown is symbolic of
the earth and was often
the color of a monk’s robe, signifying humility and God’s connection with the commonplace and the ordinary.

Blue
Blue signifies the blue skies or the life-giving air and often signifies hope or good health. It is an alternate color for the season of Advent.

White
Purity, virginity, innocence, and birth, are symbolized with this color. White is the liturgical color of Christmas and Easter.

Purple
Purple speaks of fasting, faith, patience adn trust. It is the liturgical color used during the seasons of penance; Advent and Lent.

這是讀者send給我的，希望能和大家分享7.21元朗恐襲的情況。
歡迎轉載，讓更多人看見香港發生了甚麼事。

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〈完美的一天 A Perfect Day〉

尋日（2019年7月21日）爭少少就係完美嘅一天。
It is almost a perfect day yesterday (21 July 2019).
我係一個普通嘅香港市民，八十後、基督徒、亦係天水圍人，尋日係星期日，我如常同太太出返九龍區嘅教會返崇拜，食完個晏就同太太同朋友去咗尖沙咀行街，之後喺海運戲院睇《反斗奇兵4》，然後食完飯就坐西鐵返屋企。

I am a normal Hong Kong citizen. Born in the 80's, a Christian who lives in Tin Shui Wai. Yesterday was a normal Sunday. I went back to church to join the worship with my wife in Kowloon, joined our friends for lunch in Tsim Sha Tsui, watched Toy Story 4 at the Grand Ocean cinema, and went back home after dinner by West Rail.

大約晚上十點幾喺柯士甸站上西鐵，上咗西鐵一切都好平常，直到接近十一點左右去到元朗站，月台上面傳來大叫「有人受傷、需要支援」嘅呼叫聲，而列車亦因為混亂無法開車，我就落咗去大堂睇一睇發生咩事，老婆留咗喺車廂入面。原來大堂果度一班喺閘入面嘅人已經開緊遮，佢哋俾一班閘外面身穿白色tee裇嘅人以木棍、水樽、棒球棍襲擊緊，出唔到閘。我最初觀察白衫人大約有四五十人左右，都係中年，亦有較年長嘅，識講廣東話粗口，兇神惡煞，非常激動。

At about 10pm, we were at the Austin Station, everything looked normal in the West Rail train. Our train arrived at Yuen Long Station just before 11pm, we heard a screaming, "Someone's hurt, we need backups!", and our train was stopped because of this confusion. I asked my wife to stay in the train, while I got off and went down to the station lobby to see what happened. Inside the gate, there were people holding their umbrellas up, defending from a group of gangsters who were all wearing white-shirts, attacking people inside the gate with wooden sticks, water bottles and baseball bats. People were trapped inside. There were around 40 to 50 white-shirt gangsters, mainly in their middle-aged, some were even older, shouted fiercely in Cantonese foul languages with agitation.

閘內地下留有鮮血血跡，我亦望到遠處閘外大堂有一名傷者受傷倒地，不斷俾白衫人凶緊，因為情況太危險我就無出閘幫手。我本身後退緊，打算上返車廂，就喺呢個時候閘內嘅市民突然全部退後，一湧而來，部份人衝入廁所，其他人就喺我身邊經過衝上扶手電梯梯同樓梯上月台，打算入車廂。

There were fresh blood stains on the floor inside the gate. Outside the gate not far away, there was someone injured, lying down on the floor, constantly threatening by a white-shirt gangster. I did not go out and help him due to the dangerous situation and I tended to go back up to the train. At that very moment, people inside the gate were suddenly moved back towards me. Some rushed into the washroom, others ran passed me and dashed to the platform through the escalators and staircase, and planned to reach the train for safety.

我見身邊有人跌倒，想幫又幫唔到手。然後白衫人已經殺到埋身，我正準備跑上扶手電梯上月台嘅時候就俾人從後襲擊咗後腦一下，我一邊跑一邊回望，睇到一個白衫人拎住枝棒球棍對住扶手電梯上面嘅人（包括我）大聲叫罵「 ___ 你老母」（第一個字聽得唔太清楚，請自行填充。）

Someone fell down next to me, I wished to help but I couldn't. The white-shirt gangsters were fast approaching, and I was about to rush back to the escalator. All of a sudden, I was attacked at my hindbrain, out of nowhere! I kept running and looked back at the attacker, it was a white-shirt gangster who was holding a baseball bat, yelling to the people (including me) on the escalator: YOU MOTHER _______ ! (I didn't hear it clearly, fill-in as you like)

我繼續上返月台，之後回頭望佢並無再追上嚟。我同其他乘客求奇衝入咗最尾一卡車廂，本身我都唔知自己流血，後來有其他乘客話我知我流緊血至知自己受咗傷。最後有啲熱心嘅乘客幫我消毒同包扎傷口（回想返先記得我咁大個仔都係第一次用M巾），同埋讓咗個位俾我坐。

I kept fleeing back to the platform, that white-shirt gangster had stopped chasing us. I went in the train with other passengers, and I did not even realized that I was bleeding until someone told me. Some very friendly passengers helped me to clean and wrap the wound (well, that was the first time I used sanitary pad), and nice enough to give me a seat.

過程之中我一邊用電話聯絡返老婆同佢報平安，佢話有人入咗車廂打人。而身邊嘅乘客都好不安，因為好擔心白衫嘅黑社會（我嗰刻至知原來係黑社會嚟嘅）會衝入嚟打人，好想快啲開車。同時亦開始有人話前面車廂（我係車尾）已經打緊，情況好混亂，好多人都好驚同鼓譟。唔知過咗幾耐（好似港鐵出咗聲明「詳細交代事件」，應該有寫詳細時間），我就坐返同一班列車去天水圍站，匯合返我老婆同遇到救護員，送咗去天水圍醫院，聯咗三針。我喺急症室等候期間，都不斷有被打受傷嘅人送入嚟急症室，估計有五至六個都係喺西鐵被襲的。

I was talking to my wife through the phone throughout the whole process. She told me that those gangsters were attacking people inside the train. Passengers around me were extremely worried, we were all afraid that those white-shirt Triad gangsters (now I knew they are Triad) will storme in and attack. We all hope that the train will move out from the station soon. At the same time, people were saying that there were attacks at the train head (I was at the tail), we were all in confusions and panics. After some minutes (looks like the MTR has made a statement regarding the detailed time), the train has finally moved, and I arrived Tin Shui Wai Station at last. I found my wife, we went straight to an Ambulanceman and admitted to the Tin Shui Wai Hospital afterwards, where I had my three stitches done. While I was waiting in the Emergency Room, 5 or 6 more injured people were sent in due to the West Rail attack.

急症室當值嘅警察都有主動問我係咪需要報案，我考慮咗一陣最後都同意咗，後來重案組亦係大約兩三個鐘後嚟同我落口供，佢問完個人資料之後，第一個問題就係問我有無出去遊行。我答無，佢好似有少少疑惑，我就拎返我張染咗血漬嘅《反斗奇兵4》嘅票尾比佢睇，佢先至再繼續同我落口供。最後我搞到清晨五點幾至返到屋企。

Policeman stationed in the Emergency Room has asked if I need to file a report. I had agreed after some consideration. The Crime Unit has also arrived after 2 to 3 hours to take my statement. After taking my personal information, he asked directly, "Did you join the protest march today?" I said, "No". He looked doubt. I took out the Toy Story 4 ticket stained with my blood and showed him, then he stopped questioning me. Eventually, I went home at about 5am.

其實本身尋日都係好平常嘅一日，同老婆行街、睇戲、食飯。之前我一直都有留意社會上發生嘅事，知道社會瀰漫住好多負面情緒。所以尋日我本身都打算俾自己抖一抖，放低時事一日。無奈就喺我休息、喺我最平常嘅生活當中，遇上咗無差別嘅襲擊，正所謂「我唔搞政治、政治一樣會嚟搞我」。我俾人扑濕，一定係我有做錯，而我最錯嘅係咩？我諗應該係因為我睇咗美帝嘅卡通電影。

It was a very normal day yesterday - shopping with my wife, watching movie, have a great dinner. I know what had happened lately in this city and how desperate people are these days. So I planned to have a relaxed day and free from the news. The ironic part is, on the day I was trying to rest and have a life, it was the day I encountered the indiscriminate attack. There is this saying, "you don't mess with politics, politics will mess with you eventually". I was attacked, so I must have done something wrong? What did I do wrong? Oh, I guess it must have been about me watching the American animation.

我知道我受嘅傷，同喺中上環俾警察無預警下開槍射傷嘅市民比，實在係微不足道（其實佢哋更應被關注！）。不過身邊聽到我經歷嘅朋友都好驚、好忿怒，其實我都係好忿怒、好無助，我地都無辦法明白到底點解坐西鐵返屋企會俾黑社會打，而點解警察又唔嚟阻止？但我更加感受到嘅係市民果種恐懼同絕望感，人群閃躲之際有人跌倒，有人落單，大家衝入車廂果陣會唔會發生人踩人？我老婆都陪伴咗個受驚而情緒失控嘅少女。大家都好驚、好恐懼、好絕望、好furious。人係受威脅之下，會出現figh-or-flight的反應，喺腎上腺素嘅驅使之下，一係會反擊，一係會逃走，但手無寸鐵嘅市民被圍困係車廂中被人撳住嚟打，既不能fight , 又不能flight，果種絕望同恐懼的確唔係三言兩語講得明白，往後嘅心理創傷同陰影烙印，可以係一生之久。

Comparing to those protesters shot by the Policemen without warning in Sheung Wan and Central, I was nothing (we should pay more attention to them instead!). But friends around me were shocked and outraged about my attack. To be frank, I was shocked too. Who would imagine that attack will come when I was just taking the West Rail train back home? And where were the Policemen when we need them? And most of all, I experienced the same fear and desperation with the passengers. People were dodging, falling down, left behind, there could be stampede when we rushed back to the train! My wife had also stayed and comforted a young girl who had almost lost control because of the frightening situation. Everyone was afraid, worried, hopeless and furious. When people are being threatened, there is a response called "fight-or-flight". The adrenaline will drive you to either fight back or take flight. Unfortunately, when we were unarmed and trapped inside the train, we cannot fight back, we cannot take flight, there is no word to describe the despair and fear in that scenario. The psychological trauma and shadow can be life-long.

的確，喺某啲人眼中，無論我係幾無辜被打，我走得慢所以我都依然係抵死，又或者一定係我經過元朗所以抵打。但我呢刻已經無力去鬧爆佢哋，咁做對我嚟講亦係無乜意思。我唔覺得襲擊我嘅人有幾大機會會被繩之於法，我亦都唔想停留喺去點樣出呢啖氣。難道戰爭中國家的政府會為一個被殺嘅平民作出調查麼？戰時社會有戰時嘅生存法則，我不得不面對現實：香港其實同戰爭社會已經無乜大分別，香港警隊同呢個政府係點做嘢，我已經無興趣知。

Some people may say, regardless of how innocent I am, that still, I was to blame. Maybe I ran too slow so I was meant to be attacked. Maybe I passed by Yuen Long so I should have known it better. I do not want to debate with their accusations, it is meaningless anyway. In my believe, there is no hope in taking the attacker down in my case, and I have no intention to take revenge. You see, when there is war in a country, the government will not take it serious when a citizen got killed. Wartime society has its own law of survival, and I have to deal with this reality: Hong Kong is in war now, and I have zero interest in what the HK Police Force and the government will take serious into.

但我都仍然想表達，香港人真係好有愛，喺亂世之時，大家都仍然能夠守望相助，我感受到被愛。車上嘅乘客不斷安慰我，不斷喺有限嘅物資之中幫我消毒止血做急救，救護員都幫咗我好多，我嘅朋友本身已經返咗喺市區嘅屋企都衝返入嚟睇我，亦有朋友係專登揸車入嚟，我嘅屋企人陪我喺急症室等通宵。所有朋友嘅安慰、慰問同祝福我都感受到。

There is one thing I must say. Hong Kong people are really full of passion. During this chaotic time, people are still willing to look after each other. I am blessed with their love: Passengers on the train have comforted me, treated my wound carefully when there is lack of first-aid materials; the professional treatment by the Ambulancemen; some friends have even rushed back after arriving their homes in downtown, one even drove his car all the way to the hospital; my family who have stayed with me in the Emergency Room throughout the whole night; all the comforts, loves and blessings from my friends…I am so blessed.

我唔係想講受襲嘅事唔重要，或者我要淡化、粉飾太平，我相信任何一個有良知嘅人都會對所有尋晚係西鐵上無辜受襲嘅市民感到心痛同忿怒。不過，我亦知道我哋呢種忿怒已經無處可容，因為呢個社會嘅制度已經崩壞，極權肆虐到一個點係唔可能再容許我哋有自己嘅思想同感受。塗鴉一個圖案可以係破壞政府管治基礎嘅底線，如此荒謬嘅話仲係出自一區首長之口，譴責圖案受破壞，比危殆嘅人命還緊要，我就明白到，無人性嘅極權眼中又點會睇到平民百姓人命價值嘅可貴？呢個邪惡嘅政治制度不過係想透過「收買人命」嘅恐慌嚟製造威權管治嘅理由，逼使人民放棄思想同抗爭，做個順民去拜服極權，等佢哋以為自己可以千秋萬世。

I will not say that the attack is not important, or lighten it up or paper over the cracks. Anyone have conscious will definitely be heartbroken and ambushed about the attack at the West Rail. But the truth is that, our outrageous has nowhere to escape. Our society system is corrupting, the totalitarianism is raging brutally to a point where no one is allowed to have their own thinking and feeling. When a simple graffiti is an act to test the bottom line of the government's governance, when the Chief Executive ridiculously condemns the destruction of a symbolic device more than the vicious attack to innocent citizen, I know that our lives have absolutely no values to these senior officials. This evil political system is taking lives, creating the chaos and the reason for their stuck-up governance, forcing the people to give up fighting, while eventually the people will worship them as gods with their kingdom lasts forever.

但係，在荒謬絕倫、置身喺邪惡陰謀嘅被襲經驗之中，我感受到身邊仍然有可愛嘅人，無論係素未謀面嘅乘客、救護員、定係我嘅朋友同家人，係佢地嘅愛同關心，使我能夠克服果種面對荒謬時嘅無助感，令我能夠有信心繼續行落去，有勇氣去面對果份無可躲避嘅恐懼，有盼望去戰勝果啲因擔心無差別隨機攻擊而帶嚟嘅心理壓力。

However, in this ridiculous attack experience under the evil conspiracy, there are lovely people around me: passengers , Ambulancemen, friends and family, for their loves and comforts give me the strength to overcome the helpless feeling throughout this absurd situation, the faith to move on, the courage to face the inevitable fear, and the hope to concur the in-depth pressure caused by the desperation of the indiscriminate attack.

昨日的我，經歷了被襲擊，令我完美的一天不再完美，但我卻在遭害和恐懼當中發現了愛和勇氣，是香港人守望的愛。

I was attacked yesterday, and it made my perfect day imperfect. But I found love and courage in the time of danger and fear. Hong Kong people do watch over for each other.

是的，香港人很有愛，所以我們值得擁有比現在更好的社會領袖和政治制度，We deserve better。因為你們有愛，所以我能夠不再怕遭害。因為你們有愛，所以我能夠堅持這個心願。因為你們有愛，所以我有信心香港人能夠一齊撐落去。

HongKongers are so full of love, that is why we deserve better society leaders and political system. We DO deserve better. Because of your love, I do not fear the danger. Because of your love, I can hold tight to hope. Because of your love, I have faith that HongKongers can stick together and make our own future.

香港人，加油💪🏻！
HongKongers, ADD OIL!