我想和看過我有關我談瘦不瘦這方面的人說:
To those who had ever read any of my words regarding being thin or not:
I'm sorry.
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The person in the picture was me...
我想和看過我有關我談瘦不瘦這方面的人說:
To those who had ever read any of my words regarding being thin or not:
I'm sorry.
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The person in the picture was me, a girl with disordered eating but haven't realized it.
I was overwhelmed by the social stigma that being thin is "better."
I was sold by the lucrative idea that women should look "small."
I was full of insecurity because I bought all the idea that diet culture sells.
And I was wrong.
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I had been mistreating myself for almost half of my life.
And I want to fix that.
I'm also aware that I've unconsciously promoted the "being thin" idea by talking about it all the time. I'm sorry.
I just realized that diet culture actually started with people talking about body shapes.
We heard people talking about body shape all the time, so we got used to it.
But common is not equal to normal or healthy.
When I realized that, I began to find tons of evidence around my life:
- people talking about how much weight they have lost/gained,
- people staring in the mirror and checking their every single body part,
- people looking at food with insecurity and fear.
If you're any of them, I feel you.
I understand.
Because I was ALL of them.
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After I rectified my mindset and the relationship with my body, the freedom and comfort I found are beyond words.
And it breaks my heart to see many old "me-s" doing bad things to their body.
You're not your body.
The body will change every single day,
but you won't, so do the people who love you.
Every body is different. That's what makes each of us special and beautiful in your own way.
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照片中是以前的我,有著 disorder eating 但還沒發現的那個我。
以前的那個我,被社群污名-"瘦=好" 沖昏了腦袋。
以前的那個我,相信了那充滿金錢利益的"女生要小隻"的那個想法。
以前的那個我,充滿了不安,因為吸收了節食減肥文化所販售的一切。
我以前錯了。
到目前為止的人生,有一半我都在對錯待自己。
所以我想要修正和彌補這一切。
我也同時發現過去的我,在不知覺的情況下提倡了減肥節食文化,I'm sorry.
我最近也才了解到,減肥節食文化的起源就是因為每個人都在談論身材。
但是常見的事情不等於正常,或是健康。
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所以當我意識到這件事的時候,我也開始發現身邊生活中處處充滿減肥文化的證據。
- 人們談論著它們它們變瘦/變胖x公斤
- 人們看著鏡子,端量自己身體每一吋
- 人們看著食物,眼中帶著不安以及害怕
如果你有感受過任何一個,我與你同在。
我了解那感覺,
因為我過去全都有經歷過。
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在重新校正我的想法與我與身體中的關係後,
我感受到的自由與舒適是言語無法形容的。
而現在我想要與你們分享這一切的經驗
看到太多"過去的我"對自己做不好的事情
讓我覺得心好沉重、也感到難過
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你不等於你的身形,
身形每天都會變,但你不會,
愛你的人也是。
每個人的身體都不同,
這正是讓我們每個人"特別"的美麗之處
Love,
Nora