成日有女仔inbox Serrini的page分享長篇成長煩惱/擔心/迷失故事，每個都好introspective。這尤其在我有日無聊玩「紫薯MaMa」persona 之後出現。

我的存在對於這群年輕女生有什麼意義？我想就是面對世俗洪流都開心笑and跳舞繼續看書和勇敢向前走的一種「自若」，這種「自若」大概是她們也想達到的境界。私底下我蠻「自虐」tho，成日self-batter，burrow everything like a mole 🤓（我覺得自己蠻poetic的所以我允許自己這樣）。現在的「自虐」是收放自如的，以前覺得自己做不好的話（always係學業）會捏自己even打自己（like real slaps），又時候會看著鏡子裡自己哭著問「你做咩咁蠢？？」這樣其實not so good。

我好鍾意睇一個叫mitú既latino media page（像buzzfeed的東東），因為佢好多vid都很empowering（同好笑），保持幽默感和輕鬆is so important。

Gurl，我覺得我自己是很多朋友顧著走過來的，而當我open my heart（to友情）的時候是有回報的，我發現其實很多人都需要一些empathy同鼓勵，有時候可以是「哇你做mud咁靚」or「頂你篇文寫得超好」or「gurl u r my die蚊」，一切都好，一切都安好，有時候就是需要借出耳朵和真誠看著對方雙眼就ok了。

說到overcompensate，我自小可能就有這個habit，什麼都要贏、什麼都要最好，我嘗試psychoanalyze自己（well看看childhood之類的nth fancy），我覺得可能是爸爸一個星期只見一個weekend，所以每個weekend我都會主動做accomplishment匯報爸爸然後讓他覺得「唔，這女兒好乖wor！」的東西。其實現在也有這種心態，每個星期要做些東西出來。心底裡可能很想有人告訴我「Serruria你唔使咁fill up自己都ok架，你慢落黎都ok架，你唔講嘢都ok架，你唔deliver都ok架」之類，這所以我那麼喜歡看poetry，濃縮的句子裡那麼多可能性讓我想太多，而慢慢理解萬般metaphors和emotions的時候其實也是一場自我對話或slow time。閱讀對於我來說其實是救贖，我不想mansplain人要點要點orpostureas傑出青年（like those"role models")，我更想是坦露自己軟弱和不足，讓更多後來者覺得要開始面對自己or和自己對話（reading可以read很多東西，not just 「看書」，我覺得read可以是「洞察」前的step），我希望我這種non chalance不是「精神暴力」or帶給人壓力，而是身教how free mind不是什麼過分艱難的事情。

進了中文大學英文系（I love it)後enlightened，慢慢發現做human的意義，這種意義慢慢展現自己的歌裡，然後吸引一群similar energy的人來一起，community building，這很warm warm的。😌。

有朋友說我的歌可能很簡單無聊on9，但是突然有一兩句突然打臉很「educated」，我覺得「有教養」is too basic，我想要transcendance🌲這個東東，你去再聽一萬次《放棄治療》看英文字幕看看。多喝水、多看著別人眼睛、多體諒、保持柔軟的心、說「我不知道自己幹嘛但是這is ok」和對著鏡子自己講"you is fine, you is intelligent, you is smarrrrrrt, you is worth it"(最近好喜歡YOU IS ME IS這樣） 一切可安好呢❤️。#Serrini寫幾句

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Lyrics:
You know I'm your type, right? (Right)
Mark your calendar, tonight's gonna be your life's highlight (Light)
Boy, we gon' roll up, we gon' roll out, look
This is the land of fast, bet you ain't used to that, nah
First to one-up your last, she can stay in your past
Honey, I don't stop for no one but I'd pause for you, you, you, you

So let's go downtown and get real high
It'd be psycho to psychoanalyze
Leave all of your inhibitions behind
Tonight let's test all the borderlines like

How far out does the indigo go?
Boy, let's find out, take the longer way home
Have my body all superimposed
Right on top of yours, oh
As far as the indigo goes
I'm hating that you're still in your clothes
Babe, touch me slow all adagio
Like oh-oh-oh-oh, yeah

Know you like a little attitude (Attitude, attitude)
A little spunk, a little gumption
Well baby, have a lot of gratitude
'Cause I can be sweet, or poised, or a little too feisty to function, yeah
So shut up and just hop in, we gon' ride in style
If thrill was a sport, I'd be the poster child
I listen to none, but I'm all ears for you, you, you, yeah

So let's drive by the city skyline
I'm so over this overthinking mind
Leave all of your inhibitions behind
Tonight let's test all the borderlines like

How far out does the indigo go?
Boy, let's find out, take the longer way home
Have my body all superimposed
Right on top of yours, oh
As far as the indigo goes
I'm hating that you're still in your clothes
Babe, touch me slow all adagio
Like oh-oh-oh-oh, yeah

Baby go slow, slow, slow, slow (Slow)
Under the indigo, go (Indigo)
Steady and slow, slow, slow, slow (Yeah)
Under the indigo, indigo