昨天聽朋友講了一件事，讓我到今天還一直在思考。

他說，曾經有人看過他的人類圖，給了一些建議，但他始終覺得不是那樣的。

在當時，他決心離開優渥穩定的工作，轉向夢想但未知的領域發展。轉職後可預期的，在幾年內的生活，可能會比較辛苦，即使未來也不確定收入能達到相同標準。

對方看了他的圖，說他的設計是重視物質生活與社會成就的，需要金錢，真是不該做這個決定。

他說他並不覺得自己是物慾高的人，也不那麼在乎功成名就，對方這麼說，讓他覺得不太服氣。

在這裡我們姑且先不論設計裡黑色和紅色的部分，是否可能讓當事人對自己某些設計較不自覺，而是我們身為分析師、諮詢師、療癒師、占卜師 or 命理師 whatever，究竟怎麼會有權利這樣去評斷他人的生命呢？

我們該做的事情，不只是把問題攤開來，用我們手上的工具，幫助對方找回自己的力量，去面對生命裡的每一個決定，這樣而已嗎？

我們沒有權利可以去介入別人的生命，去幫別人做任何決定，即使眼睜睜看他要跌倒了，那也是他必經之路，我們不能去剝奮他的學習與感受。

或也許他真的就會賺不了大錢吧，但如果那是他內在權威的決定，不也代表這才是他靈魂想要經歷的一切嗎？

而我們若戴上自己價值觀的濾鏡，隨意地說了「你真不該」，才是不負責任的「真不該」。

我很難形容這件事給我的震驚，但我明白了自己應當要更謙卑，來面對我的工作。

知道什麼閘門什麼爻的那些知識又如何，脈輪開不開又如何，通靈又如何，若你不能帶著愛與慈悲，什麼靈性學習都是枉然。

最好笑的是，當事人有著 10-34 這條為遵從信念、雖千萬人吾往矣的探索通道，啊你跟這樣的人說千萬不要往那兒走，不根本是提油救火，推他往那兒走更快嗎 XDD

［交趾奇趣錄］由便利店franchise 講到追夢講到求職擇業到Contrarian ，呢篇我好鍾意

插針不入，呢張相我好鍾意。係我影的，但已經公司容許放上網。其實Google Map都搵到，但我鍾意張相，好有霸氣，真係「插旗」

1. 地圖，就係河內，一支針就代表一間Circle K．唔使慢慢數，應該係接近150間。只計開咗嘅，打算開嘅未貼，所以公司畀我影相貼上網。

2. 咁你話，同香港比如何？香港如果同樣比例嘅地圖，我估應該插針不入。香港應該超過300間Circle K。而香港人口同河內差不多（係咪估唔到河內咁多人呢！），不過河內面積仲要係香港3倍！而香港嘅Circle K就係河內嘅double。仲要考慮埋，香港Circle K少過七仔（好似係，懶查），但河內Circle K係最大嘅玩家，拋離第二倍一個開

3. 但當然啦，又諗下，香港人均GDP（籮綿奴）係五萬美金，河內講緊係五千。十倍。

4. 又，越南Circle K，暫時全部都係直營嘅。但問返公司，其實主要係因為都未成熟，搞Franchise又要搞一大輪，搞掂手上其他嘢先諗

5. 我非行內人，但感覺係啲嘢成熟晒，畀人舔晒，先會開放搞Franchise。原因好簡單，瑞士山區肺之嘛，咁著數，咁好搵，點解要益你？

6. 唯一例外，就係公司想上市（香港有例子，唔好開名啦），賓架自然叫你昆你開多啲舖。另一樣嘢亦係，Franchise係最快手可以好似病毒咁擴張嘅方法，直營店自己一間一間揼石仔，考功夫—特別係去到發源地以外。

7. No offense，但我個人係極討厭Franchise呢樣東西，我甚至唔係好明點解有人去做。例如七仔嘅招數，大家都讀過聽過。（下面主要講七仔，但適用於所有Franchise，講七仔只係因為我比較記得，大家又比較熟）

8. 我自己嘅理解，只係利用啲人嘅老闆夢剝削（嘩，幾時寫嘢變咗咁左膠）佢地。根本就仲慘過打工，不過你「以為」自己係老闆之嘛。實情啲條款一定辣到跳舞，玩到你謝都得。

9. 而就算唔講錢，即係，你創業，再衰都會買到個教訓，好啲嘅會學到啲嘢，至少八十歲都仲有嘢同人講。但喂，你去Franchise間嘢，創辦人又唔係你，營運你又冇乜點話事，有乜成就感可言？八十歲同人講我run過間七仔？

10. 但當然我亦明白，其實請嘅都係弱勢社群多。之但係，開嗰個呢？聽聞一定要自己做埋一份，喂，都六七十萬入場喎，六七十萬你話好多又唔係，但肯定唔係叫赤貧下話。拎嚟做其他嘢，好過去幫跨國大集團做螺絲咯，你估CEO在加勒比海攬鬼妹會多謝你？（嘩，做乜今日啲嘢咁左）。

11. 但，回復返我本性啦。存在就合理啦。作為一個分析員，當然明白，Franchise對公司係相當好嘅東西，否則唔會咁多人推。只要你睇得緊，唔好畀啲友又賣奶茶又賣雞蛋仔（聰明嘅香港人在側邊租個舖位打通佢，嘻），保持到個質素，做Franchise真係品牌收割，將自己build出嚟嘅嘢租出去，營運嘅風險由嗰啲友自己孭，你就年年收Franchise fee袋袋平安，公司最鍾意，投資者最鍾意，一個字，visibility，話知你死人冧樓射催淚彈肺炎，總之Franchise fee照收。

12. 亦係嗰句，一個願打一個願捱，講到話昆人咁，但一樣前前後後有人仆入去丫，對不？咪就係因為追夢，年紀一把，錢又有啲，但張家輝話齋，「唔想熄咗燈時咩都冇」。

13. 但，熄咗燈時發現自己最大成就係Franchise間七仔，係咪死得眼閉？我就寧願拎幾廿萬去澳門啦。買杏仁餅啫。

14. 好殘酷嘅事實，我好多時公開場合講都有人屌，咁我會講得溫和啲。但個本質就係，呢個世界好多人（萬惡嘅資本家！今日好左！），利用你嘅夢想理想熱誠去慳成本的。請記者係咁，請空姐亦係咁，start up 請人亦係咁。「你幫我打工係你榮幸」「本報係少林寺你同我講錢？」

15. 我覺得公平的，你有滿足感，咪staff benefit 嘅一部份咯，咁所以咪低啲人工。某日本老闆話，返工唔係迪士尼嘛，如果你返得好開心嘅，佢會在門口裝個閘機叫你買飛。

16. 當然啦，識玩嘅玩法，就係做啲表面嘅「厭惡性工作」，拎個人工premium—但其實你仲要樂在其中！

17. 講白啲，即係做雞但好享受咁，咪贏晒，改變唔到環境，就改變你自己。改變唔到自己，就改變個心態。份工作一般人係厭惡，所以要出高人工先請到人，但我好享受！

18. 如果掉轉呢，你嘅理想，同大多數人差不多嘅，咁咪就係競爭大，人人都有呢種滿足感，你又有，咪成為扣起你人工嘅一部份。

19. 所以呢，你嘅心態同價值觀，差不多一定不能係大路，要contrarian —如果你係大路嘅價值垷，你就仆去做啲「老細認為人人都覺得好有滿足感，而可以壓價嘅」工作。

20. 當然有例外，埃汾做嘅工，都冇出現過呢啲情況，因為埃汾一向都係「給我現水唔好同我講夢想」。但，教書係有滿足感，同時又幾高人工嘅（唔好計你咩出面升到做CEO啦，屌你，教官校嗰啲有幾多個有料出面撈到咁？）。點解會咁？咪就係因為，係政府價格管制咯，保護主義真好。你試下請件教學助理？就變咗以上嘅例子啦

21. 同樣地，其實都個個仆去做分析員。但當年（2006）我轉去耆英時都兩皮半人工，花紅仲相當不錯。點解會咁？因為我當年叫做係帶藝投師，好歹都撈過下銀行，加上嗰個係美好嘅pre 雷曼年代，pre MIFID II 年代。而家？如果由低由煙腸做起？就真係大撚把人唔收人工都搶入去做Analyst intern or trainee。幾時都係供求。

22. 咁當然啦，做Analyst都有一定門檻嘅，no offense，但競爭雖則大，都唔係你求其搵條友做都得嘛。

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版務：嚟真的了，應該3月會有不少搞作。呢度啲文應該會繼續，但埃汾會搞收費專欄，亦都搞收費chatroom（講明先，主要係我廣播，多過回你，否則好唔得閒），甚至會搞Patreon（但未諗到有乜嘢私你地，我又唔會send露點相，當然你肯每個月幾百蚊睇我露兩點我都好歡迎），另外仲會搞個Instagram（放心，貼金融圖啫）。Stay tuned．人人冇心機work from home 時，埃汾就逆市出擊了。身體力行別人恐懼時我貪婪。其實呢度啲文都會繼續，但問心你都知，就梗係優先服侍咗有課金班忠實讀者先啦。詳情之後解

呀！仲應該會有女助手！遲下介紹佢出場！會出鏡的！但佢有啲怕醜！大家唔好嚇怕佢！

這是讀者send給我的，希望能和大家分享7.21元朗恐襲的情況。
歡迎轉載，讓更多人看見香港發生了甚麼事。

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〈完美的一天 A Perfect Day〉

尋日（2019年7月21日）爭少少就係完美嘅一天。
It is almost a perfect day yesterday (21 July 2019).
我係一個普通嘅香港市民，八十後、基督徒、亦係天水圍人，尋日係星期日，我如常同太太出返九龍區嘅教會返崇拜，食完個晏就同太太同朋友去咗尖沙咀行街，之後喺海運戲院睇《反斗奇兵4》，然後食完飯就坐西鐵返屋企。

I am a normal Hong Kong citizen. Born in the 80's, a Christian who lives in Tin Shui Wai. Yesterday was a normal Sunday. I went back to church to join the worship with my wife in Kowloon, joined our friends for lunch in Tsim Sha Tsui, watched Toy Story 4 at the Grand Ocean cinema, and went back home after dinner by West Rail.

大約晚上十點幾喺柯士甸站上西鐵，上咗西鐵一切都好平常，直到接近十一點左右去到元朗站，月台上面傳來大叫「有人受傷、需要支援」嘅呼叫聲，而列車亦因為混亂無法開車，我就落咗去大堂睇一睇發生咩事，老婆留咗喺車廂入面。原來大堂果度一班喺閘入面嘅人已經開緊遮，佢哋俾一班閘外面身穿白色tee裇嘅人以木棍、水樽、棒球棍襲擊緊，出唔到閘。我最初觀察白衫人大約有四五十人左右，都係中年，亦有較年長嘅，識講廣東話粗口，兇神惡煞，非常激動。

At about 10pm, we were at the Austin Station, everything looked normal in the West Rail train. Our train arrived at Yuen Long Station just before 11pm, we heard a screaming, "Someone's hurt, we need backups!", and our train was stopped because of this confusion. I asked my wife to stay in the train, while I got off and went down to the station lobby to see what happened. Inside the gate, there were people holding their umbrellas up, defending from a group of gangsters who were all wearing white-shirts, attacking people inside the gate with wooden sticks, water bottles and baseball bats. People were trapped inside. There were around 40 to 50 white-shirt gangsters, mainly in their middle-aged, some were even older, shouted fiercely in Cantonese foul languages with agitation.

閘內地下留有鮮血血跡，我亦望到遠處閘外大堂有一名傷者受傷倒地，不斷俾白衫人凶緊，因為情況太危險我就無出閘幫手。我本身後退緊，打算上返車廂，就喺呢個時候閘內嘅市民突然全部退後，一湧而來，部份人衝入廁所，其他人就喺我身邊經過衝上扶手電梯梯同樓梯上月台，打算入車廂。

There were fresh blood stains on the floor inside the gate. Outside the gate not far away, there was someone injured, lying down on the floor, constantly threatening by a white-shirt gangster. I did not go out and help him due to the dangerous situation and I tended to go back up to the train. At that very moment, people inside the gate were suddenly moved back towards me. Some rushed into the washroom, others ran passed me and dashed to the platform through the escalators and staircase, and planned to reach the train for safety.

我見身邊有人跌倒，想幫又幫唔到手。然後白衫人已經殺到埋身，我正準備跑上扶手電梯上月台嘅時候就俾人從後襲擊咗後腦一下，我一邊跑一邊回望，睇到一個白衫人拎住枝棒球棍對住扶手電梯上面嘅人（包括我）大聲叫罵「 ___ 你老母」（第一個字聽得唔太清楚，請自行填充。）

Someone fell down next to me, I wished to help but I couldn't. The white-shirt gangsters were fast approaching, and I was about to rush back to the escalator. All of a sudden, I was attacked at my hindbrain, out of nowhere! I kept running and looked back at the attacker, it was a white-shirt gangster who was holding a baseball bat, yelling to the people (including me) on the escalator: YOU MOTHER _______ ! (I didn't hear it clearly, fill-in as you like)

我繼續上返月台，之後回頭望佢並無再追上嚟。我同其他乘客求奇衝入咗最尾一卡車廂，本身我都唔知自己流血，後來有其他乘客話我知我流緊血至知自己受咗傷。最後有啲熱心嘅乘客幫我消毒同包扎傷口（回想返先記得我咁大個仔都係第一次用M巾），同埋讓咗個位俾我坐。

I kept fleeing back to the platform, that white-shirt gangster had stopped chasing us. I went in the train with other passengers, and I did not even realized that I was bleeding until someone told me. Some very friendly passengers helped me to clean and wrap the wound (well, that was the first time I used sanitary pad), and nice enough to give me a seat.

過程之中我一邊用電話聯絡返老婆同佢報平安，佢話有人入咗車廂打人。而身邊嘅乘客都好不安，因為好擔心白衫嘅黑社會（我嗰刻至知原來係黑社會嚟嘅）會衝入嚟打人，好想快啲開車。同時亦開始有人話前面車廂（我係車尾）已經打緊，情況好混亂，好多人都好驚同鼓譟。唔知過咗幾耐（好似港鐵出咗聲明「詳細交代事件」，應該有寫詳細時間），我就坐返同一班列車去天水圍站，匯合返我老婆同遇到救護員，送咗去天水圍醫院，聯咗三針。我喺急症室等候期間，都不斷有被打受傷嘅人送入嚟急症室，估計有五至六個都係喺西鐵被襲的。

I was talking to my wife through the phone throughout the whole process. She told me that those gangsters were attacking people inside the train. Passengers around me were extremely worried, we were all afraid that those white-shirt Triad gangsters (now I knew they are Triad) will storme in and attack. We all hope that the train will move out from the station soon. At the same time, people were saying that there were attacks at the train head (I was at the tail), we were all in confusions and panics. After some minutes (looks like the MTR has made a statement regarding the detailed time), the train has finally moved, and I arrived Tin Shui Wai Station at last. I found my wife, we went straight to an Ambulanceman and admitted to the Tin Shui Wai Hospital afterwards, where I had my three stitches done. While I was waiting in the Emergency Room, 5 or 6 more injured people were sent in due to the West Rail attack.

急症室當值嘅警察都有主動問我係咪需要報案，我考慮咗一陣最後都同意咗，後來重案組亦係大約兩三個鐘後嚟同我落口供，佢問完個人資料之後，第一個問題就係問我有無出去遊行。我答無，佢好似有少少疑惑，我就拎返我張染咗血漬嘅《反斗奇兵4》嘅票尾比佢睇，佢先至再繼續同我落口供。最後我搞到清晨五點幾至返到屋企。

Policeman stationed in the Emergency Room has asked if I need to file a report. I had agreed after some consideration. The Crime Unit has also arrived after 2 to 3 hours to take my statement. After taking my personal information, he asked directly, "Did you join the protest march today?" I said, "No". He looked doubt. I took out the Toy Story 4 ticket stained with my blood and showed him, then he stopped questioning me. Eventually, I went home at about 5am.

其實本身尋日都係好平常嘅一日，同老婆行街、睇戲、食飯。之前我一直都有留意社會上發生嘅事，知道社會瀰漫住好多負面情緒。所以尋日我本身都打算俾自己抖一抖，放低時事一日。無奈就喺我休息、喺我最平常嘅生活當中，遇上咗無差別嘅襲擊，正所謂「我唔搞政治、政治一樣會嚟搞我」。我俾人扑濕，一定係我有做錯，而我最錯嘅係咩？我諗應該係因為我睇咗美帝嘅卡通電影。

It was a very normal day yesterday - shopping with my wife, watching movie, have a great dinner. I know what had happened lately in this city and how desperate people are these days. So I planned to have a relaxed day and free from the news. The ironic part is, on the day I was trying to rest and have a life, it was the day I encountered the indiscriminate attack. There is this saying, "you don't mess with politics, politics will mess with you eventually". I was attacked, so I must have done something wrong? What did I do wrong? Oh, I guess it must have been about me watching the American animation.

我知道我受嘅傷，同喺中上環俾警察無預警下開槍射傷嘅市民比，實在係微不足道（其實佢哋更應被關注！）。不過身邊聽到我經歷嘅朋友都好驚、好忿怒，其實我都係好忿怒、好無助，我地都無辦法明白到底點解坐西鐵返屋企會俾黑社會打，而點解警察又唔嚟阻止？但我更加感受到嘅係市民果種恐懼同絕望感，人群閃躲之際有人跌倒，有人落單，大家衝入車廂果陣會唔會發生人踩人？我老婆都陪伴咗個受驚而情緒失控嘅少女。大家都好驚、好恐懼、好絕望、好furious。人係受威脅之下，會出現figh-or-flight的反應，喺腎上腺素嘅驅使之下，一係會反擊，一係會逃走，但手無寸鐵嘅市民被圍困係車廂中被人撳住嚟打，既不能fight , 又不能flight，果種絕望同恐懼的確唔係三言兩語講得明白，往後嘅心理創傷同陰影烙印，可以係一生之久。

Comparing to those protesters shot by the Policemen without warning in Sheung Wan and Central, I was nothing (we should pay more attention to them instead!). But friends around me were shocked and outraged about my attack. To be frank, I was shocked too. Who would imagine that attack will come when I was just taking the West Rail train back home? And where were the Policemen when we need them? And most of all, I experienced the same fear and desperation with the passengers. People were dodging, falling down, left behind, there could be stampede when we rushed back to the train! My wife had also stayed and comforted a young girl who had almost lost control because of the frightening situation. Everyone was afraid, worried, hopeless and furious. When people are being threatened, there is a response called "fight-or-flight". The adrenaline will drive you to either fight back or take flight. Unfortunately, when we were unarmed and trapped inside the train, we cannot fight back, we cannot take flight, there is no word to describe the despair and fear in that scenario. The psychological trauma and shadow can be life-long.

的確，喺某啲人眼中，無論我係幾無辜被打，我走得慢所以我都依然係抵死，又或者一定係我經過元朗所以抵打。但我呢刻已經無力去鬧爆佢哋，咁做對我嚟講亦係無乜意思。我唔覺得襲擊我嘅人有幾大機會會被繩之於法，我亦都唔想停留喺去點樣出呢啖氣。難道戰爭中國家的政府會為一個被殺嘅平民作出調查麼？戰時社會有戰時嘅生存法則，我不得不面對現實：香港其實同戰爭社會已經無乜大分別，香港警隊同呢個政府係點做嘢，我已經無興趣知。

Some people may say, regardless of how innocent I am, that still, I was to blame. Maybe I ran too slow so I was meant to be attacked. Maybe I passed by Yuen Long so I should have known it better. I do not want to debate with their accusations, it is meaningless anyway. In my believe, there is no hope in taking the attacker down in my case, and I have no intention to take revenge. You see, when there is war in a country, the government will not take it serious when a citizen got killed. Wartime society has its own law of survival, and I have to deal with this reality: Hong Kong is in war now, and I have zero interest in what the HK Police Force and the government will take serious into.

但我都仍然想表達，香港人真係好有愛，喺亂世之時，大家都仍然能夠守望相助，我感受到被愛。車上嘅乘客不斷安慰我，不斷喺有限嘅物資之中幫我消毒止血做急救，救護員都幫咗我好多，我嘅朋友本身已經返咗喺市區嘅屋企都衝返入嚟睇我，亦有朋友係專登揸車入嚟，我嘅屋企人陪我喺急症室等通宵。所有朋友嘅安慰、慰問同祝福我都感受到。

There is one thing I must say. Hong Kong people are really full of passion. During this chaotic time, people are still willing to look after each other. I am blessed with their love: Passengers on the train have comforted me, treated my wound carefully when there is lack of first-aid materials; the professional treatment by the Ambulancemen; some friends have even rushed back after arriving their homes in downtown, one even drove his car all the way to the hospital; my family who have stayed with me in the Emergency Room throughout the whole night; all the comforts, loves and blessings from my friends…I am so blessed.

我唔係想講受襲嘅事唔重要，或者我要淡化、粉飾太平，我相信任何一個有良知嘅人都會對所有尋晚係西鐵上無辜受襲嘅市民感到心痛同忿怒。不過，我亦知道我哋呢種忿怒已經無處可容，因為呢個社會嘅制度已經崩壞，極權肆虐到一個點係唔可能再容許我哋有自己嘅思想同感受。塗鴉一個圖案可以係破壞政府管治基礎嘅底線，如此荒謬嘅話仲係出自一區首長之口，譴責圖案受破壞，比危殆嘅人命還緊要，我就明白到，無人性嘅極權眼中又點會睇到平民百姓人命價值嘅可貴？呢個邪惡嘅政治制度不過係想透過「收買人命」嘅恐慌嚟製造威權管治嘅理由，逼使人民放棄思想同抗爭，做個順民去拜服極權，等佢哋以為自己可以千秋萬世。

I will not say that the attack is not important, or lighten it up or paper over the cracks. Anyone have conscious will definitely be heartbroken and ambushed about the attack at the West Rail. But the truth is that, our outrageous has nowhere to escape. Our society system is corrupting, the totalitarianism is raging brutally to a point where no one is allowed to have their own thinking and feeling. When a simple graffiti is an act to test the bottom line of the government's governance, when the Chief Executive ridiculously condemns the destruction of a symbolic device more than the vicious attack to innocent citizen, I know that our lives have absolutely no values to these senior officials. This evil political system is taking lives, creating the chaos and the reason for their stuck-up governance, forcing the people to give up fighting, while eventually the people will worship them as gods with their kingdom lasts forever.

但係，在荒謬絕倫、置身喺邪惡陰謀嘅被襲經驗之中，我感受到身邊仍然有可愛嘅人，無論係素未謀面嘅乘客、救護員、定係我嘅朋友同家人，係佢地嘅愛同關心，使我能夠克服果種面對荒謬時嘅無助感，令我能夠有信心繼續行落去，有勇氣去面對果份無可躲避嘅恐懼，有盼望去戰勝果啲因擔心無差別隨機攻擊而帶嚟嘅心理壓力。

However, in this ridiculous attack experience under the evil conspiracy, there are lovely people around me: passengers , Ambulancemen, friends and family, for their loves and comforts give me the strength to overcome the helpless feeling throughout this absurd situation, the faith to move on, the courage to face the inevitable fear, and the hope to concur the in-depth pressure caused by the desperation of the indiscriminate attack.

昨日的我，經歷了被襲擊，令我完美的一天不再完美，但我卻在遭害和恐懼當中發現了愛和勇氣，是香港人守望的愛。

I was attacked yesterday, and it made my perfect day imperfect. But I found love and courage in the time of danger and fear. Hong Kong people do watch over for each other.

是的，香港人很有愛，所以我們值得擁有比現在更好的社會領袖和政治制度，We deserve better。因為你們有愛，所以我能夠不再怕遭害。因為你們有愛，所以我能夠堅持這個心願。因為你們有愛，所以我有信心香港人能夠一齊撐落去。

HongKongers are so full of love, that is why we deserve better society leaders and political system. We DO deserve better. Because of your love, I do not fear the danger. Because of your love, I can hold tight to hope. Because of your love, I have faith that HongKongers can stick together and make our own future.

香港人，加油💪🏻！
HongKongers, ADD OIL!