最好的自己不在未來，就在現在。

認真回想，以前我好像在每一段關係中都是在扮演某一個角色，不由自主的在為每個對象做調整。不只有在戀愛上，有時候可能跟朋友、工作夥伴都是，尤其是在前輩面前，常常我都會本能反應似的改變自己。聲音要甜一點嗎？笑話要低級一點嗎？從穿衣服就可以看出，我今天是要跟誰吃飯。雖然是微調，但透露出了一件事，我好像不夠喜歡真正的自己，所以才會擔心大家也不會喜歡真正的我。我告訴自己即使累，但如果持續努力，有一天就能變成大家都喜歡的Lara。

久而久之我和世界的相處模式只有「由外到內」，會依照別人對我的反應去斷定我的下一步。大家會覺得我很好相處，我卻越來越不快樂。現在我慢慢開始懂了，原來我把順序弄反了。我該優先處理的是自己內心的感受，其他人買不買單，其實跟你一點關係都沒有。就像找另外一半，如果我跟夢中情人在一起，但我根本無法在他面前做自己，最後還是會走不下去。

我現在33歲，So What? 終於懂，「當下的自己」才是人生時間軸上最重要的！

對了，有人好奇這次「{}」的意思嗎？簡單說是「大括號」，在數學運算式中稱作「空集合」。數學不好的人就想像一個清空的行李箱吧。「空」不是無，而是無限可能。括號還有另外一個更好懂的意思，就是「優先處理」。將過去整理過後的自己，回歸純粹，態度成熟自信！(失戀後重新出發的人應該很有感觸吧！🤣)

Your best self is not in the future, but in the Now.

Looking back, I seem to have been playing a role in almost every relationship I was ever in. I'm not just talking about romantic relationships. Whether it was with friends or colleagues (especially seniors), I would modify myself almost instinctively. Should my voice be sweeter? My jokes dirtier? If you wanted to know who I was eating with that day, all you had to do was look at the clothes I was wearing.

The changes were subtle, but they still reflected a truth: I didn’t feel like the real me was enough so I was worried that other people would also find her lacking. I told myself that if I just kept working at it, I would someday become a version of Lara that everyone accepted.

Eventually I only knew how to get my cues from the external world. I would always base my next step on feedback I got from others. Most people considered me easy to get along with, but I grew more and more unhappy.

I think I had it all wrong. My first priority should have been listening to my inner voice. Whether or not other people agree with it is not in my control nor of my concern. Take looking for a partner. Even if I found the person of my dreams, it would never last if I couldn’t be myself around them.

I am 33 years old. So What? I finally understand that "the present self" is the most important thing on the timeline of life! It’s time to prioritize me!

By the way, is anyone curious about the meaning of "{}" this time? Besides the more commonly known representation of parentheses as prioritization, these curly brackets are called “the empty set”. The empty what? If like me, math is not your strongest suit, think of it as an empty suitcase. "Empty" doesn’t mean nothing, but infinite possibilities! What will you fill your life with this time?

2021全新專輯《來者何人{}》
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<再也沒有你> 陳勢安 Andrew Tan
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#再也沒有你 #NoMoreU #SoWhat30

意思是，
可以哭、可以不用忍住
只要你不會被打倒就好。

#捲捲curly

「打邊爐驚魂」

呢排人人都唔敢打邊爐
驚惹到病毒
我突然間諗起
以前喺香港住嗰陣
經歷咗一次打邊爐驚魂.....
有次約咗幾個朋友去打邊爐
好老實講已經唔記得咗邊間
話說我好鍾意食墨魚丸
次次一定order
點知當伙記哥仔
擺咗碟墨魚丸喺枱面之後
我哋幾個朋友你眼望我眼
因為我哋發現咗有「一條毛」
「疑似」嗰度啲毛
「痴咗」係其中一粒墨魚丸上面
由於黑白分明好容易睇到
再加上「嗰條毛」大概有幾cm長
「又粗」「又黑」「又Curly」
我即刻諗......
呢碟墨魚丸究竟喺廚房準備？
定抑或喺廁所🚽....
跟住即刻叫哥仔嚟睇下兼強力投訴
佢當然「係咁灑晒Lum」
話唔好意思....即刻去換.....
我哋當然即刻改「牛丸」
費時佢拎走嗰條「證物」
然後俾返同一碟墨魚丸我哋....
但係其實食慾都已經大打折扣.....
呢件事我記到今時今日
每個情節都歷歷在目
喺香港好多時出街食嘢
真係唔好入嗰啲餐廳廚房
因為好多時睇完都唔敢再去食
所以實行「逃避現實」

尋日同好朋友分享呢件事
佢初頭聽到話
唔會嘅....
應該唔係「嗰度啲毛嚟嘅」
可能係啲手毛腳毛
「卒卒下」變咗捲曲
我同佢講
有冇啲咁長嘅手毛腳毛呀？
你估猩猩🦍咩！
粗幼都唔同啦.....
跟住佢話....咁又係.....
大家一齊笑爆.....

係疫情嘅日子
唯有同朋友大家吹下水解下悶

唔好意思成個月無出片，本身諗住等我病完先出，點知病左好耐，終於忍唔住搵左位朋友幫手，感謝呢位朋友考緊試都黎幫手。希望大家鐘意呢段片，見親身邊既男仔電親髮都電到狗毛攣咁番黎，成日都好好奇問佢地點同髮型師講要幾曲先搞到咁。希望呢段片令大家唔好有個陰影電髮係伏，其實想要個易打理、有少少微曲既All Back又唔想日日花心機整(香港人最興)，咁可以Consult 下你既髮型師有無需要電電。

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