“這個月，是一個很值得紀念的月份” 第一次YT裡坦然地說出內心的黑暗 影片裡，赤裸的說明自己在憂鬱裡時常聽見的聲音 / 開始敢開口說的緣起是在公司的會議 每一次開週會都會抽個題目，交流除了工作以外的事 那天的主題是：「人生最低潮的時候」 帶著有點畏懼的心裏表達了那份憂鬱 而他們所給我的回應 讓我覺得很感動 獲得的不是同情憐憫 而是理解 理解這件事情就像感冒生病一樣 就這樣第一次找到了出口 / 發這樣的影片前 心裏超級緊張害怕 害怕其他人用有色眼光看待 但在面對最脆弱的自己後，心情變得好豁達 看世界的角度不同了 / 只想跟現在可能經歷憂鬱的你說：「不要放棄」 不會表達 藉由一些書籍去理解自己 想要尋求幫助 不一定要從最親近的人開始 有時候與比較陌生的朋友說起 更容易開口 找到一點點的出口，就可能讓自己慢慢好起來 / 在最黑暗的時候 ， 覺得最常鬼打牆的部分 就是尋找生命的意義和價值 看到這句話之後 一切都得到了答案，想要與你們分享： 「人生的本質其實沒有任何意義, 每個人生下來，就已經擁有意義 所以是『我們』為人生賦予價值」 （不知道這樣翻譯對不對，但是應該可以大概理解的了？！） // "One of The Most Memorable Month" The very first time I faced my darkness publicly Talking about the depression in my YouTube videos It all starts with the regular meeting at work, We always spend some time talking about life or something random, There is one time the topic is : what is your most depress moment? I talked about that crazy voice in my head. And the response from my coworkers make me feel like a relief! There are no pity on there face, instead, they shows there understanding Knowing depression is like a illness same as getting cold. Before publishing the video, I felt really nervous and scared. Afraid of others are going to see me differently. But after facing the most vulnerable of myself, I started to see the world from the new perspective! For anyone who is also going through this illnesses, I would like to share some thoughts with you: If you don’t know how to express yourself, please try to understand yourself from the books. If it is hard to reach out, you can start with some friends that are not the close one! I find that is easier to talk with! If there is a way, even the small ones, it is the chance to make yourself get better!!! When feeling lost and depress, We always try to find the meaning and doubt about our self-worth! But after I saw this quote, everything got the answer: “Life has no meaning. Each of us has meaning and we bring it to life. It is a waste to be asking the question when you are the answer. “ By Joseph Campbell