🥀🤍 今天看著Hebe去爬山的文章，想起很久很久以前那晚花蓮山上滿滿的星空，是騎車經過路燈壞掉的地方，整個地平線也看得見星星的那晚。 想起還沒滿20還沒踏入社會的自己。 Open thy door to that which must go , for the loss becomes unseemly when obstructed . 你完整了嗎？ 要記得用自己最舒服的狀態依存著。 有些人老是在我耳朵旁邊提醒著，你要30了喔 我總說我還有兩年啦。 看著大家一個接著一個結婚，也被感染著幸福，想著是不是結婚才是完整。 我以前也想著28一定要結婚。 但在28那天，想著就這樣也去太可惜了，但可惜的是什麼，不可惜的是什麼，又有誰能真的證實。 記得博心說：等你想好確定好是他，就加入我們，但記得要確定是幸福的。 我看了好多次，是博心的氣質寫下這段文字，而不是那種「欸我結婚了你趕快結婚」。 那天跟霏聊天，她說要找個心靈相通的。 懂一個人的感覺，懂得接住你的感受，不讓你墜落。 沒什麼就是我忽然想牢騷一番。 為想起了那片星空而想去花蓮，所以打給思，但為了防疫我還是會乖乖在家。

哥林多前書 13:4-5 愛是恆久忍耐，又有恩慈；愛是不嫉妒；愛是不自誇，不張狂，不做害羞的事，不求自己的益處，不輕易發怒，不計算人的惡， 1 Corinthians 13:4-5 Charity suffereth long, and is kind; charity envieth not; charity vaunteth not itself, is not puffed up,Doth not behave itself unseemly, seeketh not her own, is not easily provoked, thinketh no evil; #台灣 #台東 #濱海公園 #基督復臨安息日會 #文樂教會 #送夕陽 #欣賞大自然 #海 #愛 #聖經 #經文 #TAIWAN #TAITUNG

#bestkoreandramaever because its about growth, not more unnecessary drama that makes life worse. It’s inspiring, healing in a non-lecturing way. It made me face my weakness of not letting go. And how not letting go caused me to disrespect myself, my needs and how I want to be treated. I decide to pay respect to my true feelings, I decide not to surpress them in any ways, neither force them to be expressed. I decide to listen to what my heart wants me to do (surprisingly my heart doesn’t have any fixed character, it makes different decision based on different occasions. It might be a true genius.), I decide to ignore the instructions from my fears. Then I felt like I broke the cage I made for myself. Hope we all grow into a life with the courage to ignore the illusion and lies that fear feeds us. Open to conversation and see through what people around us need, not necessarily what they say or do. (Because sometimes they listens and act from fear not their heart) Appreciate their silent or unseemly effort to love you. Understand where they are coming from. Sometimes gently help guide them to happiness when they feel they are broken. (That’s one of the white lies fear feeds us to protect us when we are not ready to step up. Fear is protective by nature, and we often forgot that its job is to protect us until we’re ready. Its job is not to block our way to happiness.) Give them the space they want. Trust them unconditionally, trust their ability to get ready and step up for themselves. I want to grow into/choose a life with clarity, simplicity, sincerity, generosity and loyalty to all loved ones. Including myself. (I take pride in how my ego problem has resolved.) Always find ways to equally treat myself and others with respect. See the connections between the seemingly irrelevant things. Be sensitive of what others really need from me. Be sensitive for my true needs. Saying no to what I don’t want, what creates more confusion and chaos. Saying yes to everything that makes me feel peace, cherished, adored and loved. And I will do the same if not more. I choose happiness, taking actions and be brave for it, taking the leap. It’s scary but it felt good. ☺️💐