This was about a month ago. I don’t like to talk about this side of me but this is for whoever that needs to hear this.

The past 2-3 years, i’ve been struggling with the demons in my head. I think only @shaneboyyy really knows what i’ve been fighting with.

There are many nights i spend crying just cause i feel extremely sad for no reason, days i spend trying to go through the day without breaking down just because i wake up feeling emotionally unwell & days where i really don’t feel like being a mom.

I know what it’s like to feel like a burden to the ones around you, like you’re losing your mind and not know who or where to turn to. To open up to people only to regret each time, to feel so trapped in your own mind & want to get away from it all so badly that the thought of death actually feels comforting. I know what it’s like to be called dramatic when your mind’s really caving in and you’ve no control, what it’s like not wanting to tell anyone anything for fear they might get tired and leave. I know what it’s like to feel like nobody understands...to be called crazy, psycho, dramatic, overly emotional, sensitive...To try so hard to tell them that you’re really struggling with what’s inside only to realise that truly, nobody understands.

I know what it’s like to feel completely helpless and defeated by your own mind. To feel like you’ve nothing to live for (even if you seem to have everything). I’ve been there. It was only last month i had another meltdown. I wanted to die and escape the pain i felt because i didn’t know how to stop what’s inside my head. How do you escape your own mind right?

But i also know that i am a lot better than i was 2 years ago. My meltdowns are a lot less frequent, less intense and these days, i often feel blessed for this life i have. When i was at my darkest, I never thought i could be okay again. It just seemed impossible. I thought i was broken, unfixable. But here i am today, much better than i was before.

So whatever you’re going through, please believe me, it’ll get better. Stay with me & give yourself more time to see that it will get better. ❤️

#HopeThroughTheNight Samaritans of Singapore

I was slated to do a photoshoot in a week but... I was facing the greatest hair-tastrophe.

My locks were dull, brittle and frizzy with unsightly flyaways and split ends. The roots have also grown out making the overall style ratty and simply maladious.

I knew what my hair needed but I have a problem - I never liked cutting my hair before a big event as I was afraid of possible hair cut hiccups that may be unfixable within the short time frame.

I was kicking myself for not planning my beauty regimen carefully when my good friend Tiffany delivered some pretty precious pearls of wisdom.

Tiffany has just tried a new hair treatment at Hairtitude known as Nanomist and her mane was clearly tamed with this new state-of the-art technology. She suggested that I go try the treatment too and even guaranteed and vouched for its effectiveness. Haha!

So I did and boy was I amazed! The strands were noticeably glossier and smoother. Wanna know the secret? Click to read on!

http://www.ilovebunny.net/2014/03/beauty-review-hairtitude-at-suntec-city.html