💌 Dear Adam,
After more than 2 years, I finally gathered enough strength to go back to our favourite place. I thought I was ready until we arrived there and I couldn’t even open the door to step my foot down from the car. As I peeped around from the car window, our whole memory together rolled back and hit me like a wave of tsunami. I quickly looked at Mr Dad’s face and thank God he understood my signal right away. He took the kids down and left me alone in the car.

There I was, at our favourite place, stuck in the car, my legs felt like jelly, my hands were icy cold in the late summer heat, my heart was pumping hard, my whole body was trembling like a volcanic mountain ready to vomit its lava…couldn’t make a move, couldn’t say a word! And not long after the kids disappeared from my sight…my tears ran down like a heavy rain. I cried and cried and cried.

After almost 2 hours, the kids walked back to the car with wide smiles on each of their faces. I was stunned looking at them. I spotted a sign of strength in them. Yes, they are stronger than me. They were so happy. They missed the place so much. They talked about our memories together. They took a walk down the memory lane walking back the trail that we last took together when you were here. And they already planned to come back again soon to create more memories at our favourite place.

And I’m glad. Relief. I found my strength back in them. I know this time I failed to get myself out there. But at least I’ve made the first move. InshaAllah next time I believe that I will be stronger to step down and be ready to create more memories with the kids at our favourite place. We will definitely be talking about you and how much we are still loving you…

Missing you,
Mrs Mom - @adamdidam’s second sister
#wisemomsays
#ALetterToMyBrotherInHeaven 💌
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#GriefAwareness

在時代力量的公開質問之下，包括趙少康及蔣萬安在內的 #戰鬥藍，已經公開表示支持 #台灣代表處 名稱。

現在，下一個問題是，戰鬥藍敢將槍口對中嗎？

環球時報最新社評公開恐嚇台灣，如果台灣代表處更名成功，將「随时准备在台海“打断他们的腿”」。請問戰鬥藍，你們是願意被打斷腿？還是將槍口瞄準中共呢？

環球時報總編輯胡錫進在推特上說「如果台灣代表處更名成功，中國會召回駐美大使，並對台灣實施全面經濟制裁，而中共軍機將飛越台灣」。

既然趙少康董事長自稱「戰鬥藍是一種號召，一種精神上的鼓舞」，那請問趙少康先生，願不願意號召戰鬥藍全體72名成員，一起公開反擊胡錫進？

究竟是戰鬥藍，還是錫進紅？趙少康先生，我們都在看。

如果戰鬥藍變成Trembling Blue，或自己跪斷了腿，那可不好看了。

【一切的失敗和不足，都是最美好的安排】
All Failures & Lacks Are The Best Things to Happen to Us

三個月前，收到來自台灣客人的這封電郵時，開心和心酸交織著在心裡。

開心，因為這是一年前通過Zoom視訊的客人。他居然在我們看八字的一週年，特地寫了封感謝函給我，真有心！

心酸，因為他寫在電郵裡的低落心情，我完完全全明白。

他的經歷，是我的曾經。我當初也是很難，很久才能走出來。

有一回，我為一位芳華正茂的女子批八字時，她很用心的寫下我說的話。

論寫筆記的完整，她是我客人當中的佼佼者。

寫到一半，我注意到她的右手開始微微顫抖。我以為是空調的風太大了，冷到她，便問她要不要披巾。

她說，是她的焦慮症發作。

「我沒在兇你，也沒對你嚴厲，你為何突然焦慮？」

「我.....打從今年疫情打亂了我的計畫，我就一直很焦慮。我覺得我很沒用，同學們都前進了，只有我現在什麼都不是，亂糟糟的。我就一直很緊張，萬一我一直都是這樣，怎麼辦？」

說著，她眼眶一紅，眼淚像斷了線的珍珠鏈似的灑下來。

我的媽呀！是我的樣子長得很催淚，還是我的聲音聽起來很虐心？怎麼客人，不分男女老少，東南西北，看到我好像都很容易哭？

我抓起一張紙巾遞給她。

「所以，我不是來了嗎？你來找我，就是要問個明路，而你很幸運那麼快就看到我啦！你看你的筆記寫得多工整，多齊全。我很多客人都不如你啊！我今天的工作，就是來給你答案的。我沒有把握，也不會接你這份差事。我接了，就代表還可以補救。你照著我的指示去做，一定柳暗花明又一村。」

又另一回，一位四十多歲的媽媽請我看兒子的八字。

我在批著八字時，這位媽媽點頭認同，然後就聲淚俱下。

我轉頭看著她沈默不語的先生。我說錯了什麼嗎？太太哭成淚人，你怎麼連紙巾也不拿給她啊？

「我是個沒有用的母親，很不稱職的母親。我沒有辦法教好孩子。我很愛他，可是很多時候我都不知道要怎麼做，我就會對他發脾氣，說狠話，過後我又後悔。我忍下來，可是後來還是會一樣！」

我沒打斷她，等她的哭聲逐漸小聲後，我柔柔的說：「我來啦！我坐在你前面了。你已經看到我，就是有辦法了。你知道你自己不行，會去找辦法，就代表你願意去學習做個好媽媽啊！」

我把紙巾遞給她，再說：「不要哭了，要不然，別人看了以為是我不要借你錢，才把你弄得那麼傷心。」

曾幾何時，我們都會以外在所擁有的，來定義自己的人生是否值得自己喜歡。

從原生家庭、樣貌、健康、身型、智力、天賦等，到後來的學歷、友情、事業、財富、婚姻、子女......

哪一樣沒有，而偏偏是我們最想要的，我們就會認定自己失敗的一塌糊塗。

我認為這就是普通教育最大的問題所在。父母老師都是這樣把我們「分門別類」的。值不值得父母疼愛或向親朋戚友炫耀，也離不開那幾點。

久而久之，我們也只會以「成功」來定義自己是否有價值，甚至來衡量自己是否有活下去的勇氣。

我比較喜歡佛法的定義。我們每個人都是一尊佛，六道眾生皆有佛性，只因一時的迷，因此墮落在苦輪不停的輪迴。

可正因為我們有佛性，我們都有無窮無盡的可能。每個人的內在有著很強大的力量，等著我們遇到明師後，去發掘、探索和了解。

而這天生俱來的力量，就是你改命立命的資本。

如果人生順風順水，我們永遠不會想要出離，誤把人間當極樂，所以一定要有苦，我們才會意識到，為什麼我們會在這鬼地方？要怎麼樣才可以離開這鬼地方去到極樂？

反過來，我們都應該感恩自己遇到的挫折，因為從這些苦中，我們才能生出智慧。

沒有一個八字是完美的。一切的失敗和不足，都是最美好的安排，如此你才會有出離心，返本歸源。

_______________________

3 months ago, when I received this email from my Taiwan client, there was this feeling of bittersweetness.

I was happy because this was the client I did a Zoom consultation last June. He sent me this email on the one-year anniversary date of our Zoom call, to express his gratitude. How sweet!

On the other hand, I could relate to the emotional turmoil he felt at that point in his life.

His experience was my past. It also took me a very long time to walk out from my gloominess.

Once, I analysed the Bazi of a very young lady. She was meticulously jotting down notes as I spoke.

Her detailed note-taking skills easily took the top place among my clients.

Halfway through, I noticed her right hand was trembling slightly. I thought it was due to the cold draft from the air conditioning, so I asked if she needed a shawl.

She replied that it was her anxiety disorder acting up.

“I was not fierce or strict with you. What caused your sudden anxiety?”

“I…ever since the pandemic disrupted my plans, I have been in this state of anxiety. I kept feeling useless. All my classmates are progressing expect me. I have nothing to show for and my life is in a mess. I am very anxious. What if I continue to be like this? What am I going to do?”

As she spoke, her eyes turned red and tears started rolling down like a broken strand of pearl necklace scattering onto the ground.

Oh dear! I am beginning to wonder if I have a tear-jerker face or a heart-tormenting voice. Why do my clients, regardless of gender and age, North South or East West, seem to cry easily when they see me?

I grabbed a piece of tissue and handed it to her.

“Ain’t I here already? You came to me for a roadmap and you are very lucky to see me so soon. Look at how precise and neat your notes are! Many of my clients aren’t even on par with you. My job today is to give you answers. If I didn’t have the confidence, I would not have taken up your request. Now that I did, that means there is still hope. If you follow my instructions, you will see things looking up very soon.”

On another occasion, a mother in her forties came to me for her son’s Bazi consultation.

As I was analysing, the mother nodded her head in agreement. The next thing I know, she started weeping loudly.

I turned to look at her husband, who had been silent all along. Did I say something wrong? And hello, your wife was crying. Why weren’t you gentleman enough to give her a tissue paper?

“I am a useless mother. I am incompetent. I do not know how to teach my son well. I love my son very much. But many times, I do not know what to do and thus I flare up at him and speak harshly. I always regret afterwards. I tried enduring but it still ends badly!”

I did not interrupt her and waited for her cries to soften, before speaking gently, “I’m here! I’m already sitting in front of you. You are looking at me now and that means help is here. You know that you are incompetent, so you went looking for solutions. That means you are willing to learn how to be a better mother!”

I handed a piece of tissue and said, “Don’t cry anymore, otherwise, other patrons will think that it’s because I refuse to lend you money.”

Since young, we have been using external possessions to define whether our lives are worth liking.

The family we are born into, our looks, health, body shape, intellect, talents, and then we move on to compare our academics, friendships, career, wealth, marriage and children.

If we are lacking in the area we covet most, we grade our lives as a failure.

I think this is the biggest problem in societal education. Our parents and teachers categorized us that way. Whether we as children are worthy of their love and bragging, depends on the few points above too.

Thus over time, we can only use the term “success” to determine whether we are of value, for some people, whether they should live on to take their next breath.

I very much prefer the definition in Buddhism. We are all Buddhas. Each and every sentient being in the six realms has a Buddha nature in them. But they got lost momentarily and fell into the endless wheel of reincarnation.

Yet, because of our Buddha nature, we have an unlimited source of potential. Every one of us has a very powerful strength inside us. It is just waiting for us to meet an accomplished teacher, so that we have the tools to explore and understand it:

And this strength that we are born with is the capital for us to transform and establish our own destiny.

If life is smooth-sailing, we would never want to leave and would mistake this mortal realm for Pureland. Thus, we all need sufferings, to realise that we should break out of this hell of a place. There has to be a better world somewhere. So how we get there?

We should, in fact, be grateful for all the setbacks and failures we have. Because it is from these sufferings, our wisdom arise:

No single Bazi is perfect. Every failure and lack we experience is the best arrangement for us, so that the heart of renunciation will arise in us and we will return to where we came from.

遊生夢死 (Yuseiboushi) - Eve Music Video

▼Streaming / DL (配信) 9/27～
https://tf.lnk.to/gunjoyusei

Lyrics/Music/Vocal：Eve
Arrangement：Numa

カラオケ(inst)：http://piapro.jp/evemaru

◆個人制作アニメーションの祭典『Project Young.』公式サイト
https://project-young.net/

◆主題歌『遊生夢死』Project Young. Compilation Video Film:A
https://youtu.be/hSbi31htz-w

ANIMATION STAFF Credit

Produce Eve

Director/Storyboard/CharacterDesign/MainAnimator
niL

ConceptArt/BackgroundArt
Imari Ozaki

Composite/Edit/3DCG/VFX/ProductionManager
tyao

----Special Thanks----

Animator
Shun Enokido
Keisuke Kojima 　　
Hiroto Nishizawa　　
Sachie Hiraka

Painter
Ayumi Kobayashi
Akito Senaha

Recorded by Tetsuro Sawamoto (Aobadai Studio Inc.)
Recorded at Aobadai Studio Inc.
Assisted by Miyuki Nakamura (Aobadai Studio Inc.)
Mixed by Masashi Uramoto (Soi Co.,Ltd)
Mixed at Soi Studio

~~End roll~~

piano : Nene Ario

Eve
HP：http://eveofficial.com/
twitter：https://twitter.com/oO0Eve0Oo
youtube channel：https://goo.gl/jiNQkz

◆New EP『廻廻奇譚 / 蒼のワルツ』
2020.12.23 release

▶️ Tie up
廻廻奇譚 / TVアニメ『呪術廻戦』オープニング主題歌
蒼のワルツ / アニメ映画『ジョゼと虎と魚たち』主題歌
心海 / アニメ映画『ジョゼと虎と魚たち』挿入歌

▼CD
https://tf.lnk.to/kaikaiwaltz_CD

◆Lyrics

遊生夢死

漂う思いのせいで 満たされない雨で
Due to these drifting thoughts, in the unfulfilling rain
立ち込める 爛れてく 鈍色の月
I'm enshrouded by the blazing dull-colored moon

揺蕩うような声で あなたを知って
I know you by your wavering voice
夢のようでいて
Existing as if it were in a dream
夜を壊せと 手放せと 揺らう心音を
Break through the night and let go of that trembling heartbeat

ほっとした 感傷的になれば
I'm relieved, if I become sentimental
繰り返しようのない相槌を
The backchanneling doesn't seem to repeat

白昼夢の底に浸かったまんまの
Remaining submerged in the depths of a daydream
くたばりぞこないへ
Dear you, who failed to die

遊生夢死
Living idly and dying as if dreaming
才能ない脳内 唱えよシスターズ
Preach to my talentless brain, sisters
首を垂れることしかないの
All I can do is lower my head
愛など満たない 性根はどうしようもないなら
Love and the likes are not enough, if my disposition can't be helped then
再会を誓う 嫌だ
Let's vow to reunite, I don't want to
未だ僕だけをみてと
Look at just me in this moment

恋をした 軽薄に染まれば
I've fallen in love, if I dye it in lightheartedness
ただ盲目にひたすら歩けと
Just blindly, earnestly walk

時折見せる仕草と
The occasional gestures made and
その眼差しを注いで
That gaze that pours out everything

目を合わせてくれないようで冥々
So dark that our eyes won't be able to meet
瞬くように 酔った夢に生きたくて
In a blink of an eye, I want to live in an intoxicated dream
その闇を劈くような轟音に
Pierce that darkness with a seemingly thunderous roar
踊ることを止めないで
Don't stop dancing to it

はっとした ただ暴君に染まれば
I realized, if you're dyed by a tyrant
その笑顔に真価などないと
Then that smile won't have any value
唾を吐き捨てるように 優しい言葉を解いて
As if you're about to spit it out, unravel the kind words

明日には忘れたようにおどけて
Joke around as if you've forgotten about everything tomorrow
刺さったままの心の傷跡
With scars on your heart that remains pierced
僕らは逃げるように 踏みにじる想い
As if we're running away, these trampled feelings
隠して
Hide them


目も当てられない眩むような銘々
Seemingly dazzling individuals I cannot bear to look at
あなたにとってどんな夢を描いて
What kind of dream are you creating for yourself?
唇を噛みしめる間もならないまま
Something that won't make you keep biting your lips
ふり落ちる涙は見せないで
Don't show your falling drops of tears

弱さは見せないで
Don't show any weakness

本当は言いたかった
The truth is that I wanted to say this
綺麗ごとだけでは
Even if you say it's just pretty words

蜃気楼に惑うの あなたは眩しいくらい
Captivated by this mirage, you are to the extent of being dazzling
美しい未来だ
Just like the beautiful future

恋をした 誰も知らない世界で
I fell in love, in a world that no one knows of
願ったあの日の物語へと
Going towards the story of that day I wished for

(英訳:Dani)

原曲｜一小片天堂 (Cover)
原唱｜閻奕格
Cover｜九九 Sophie
原詞｜徐世珍
Cover詞｜陶山Skot Suyama
曲｜陶山Skot Suyama、Sean M.Sinclair宋星凱
編制｜陶山 Skot Suyama
共同創作｜顏士育 Bruno Yen（導演剪接）
九九 Sophie（歌手對嘴拍攝）
曾郁婷 Angel Mao（演員）
歌名手寫｜班森學字 Benson Chen
特別感謝｜庭竹 TingChu、謝佳霖 Lynn Hsieh、林木森(演員)、林小沐(演員)

_______________________________________

A Little bit of Love
Music: 陶山 Skot Suyama, 宋星凱 Sean M. Sinclair
Lyrics: 陶山 Skot Suyama

I’ve been searching for someone like you
我一直在尋找一個像你一樣的人
I’m hoping you’re looking for somebody too
多麼希望我也是你在尋找的那個人
Because here I am, at your door
因為我在這裡，在你家門口
Trembling, in the cold
在寒冷中，發抖
Tell me what will you do?
等待著你的答案

You open, tell me, what do you see?
你開了門，告訴我 你看到的是什麼
The heart in my hands or the tears on my sleeve
是想要把心交給你的我，還是我止不住的淚
Cause I’m sorry, for everything
我對這一切感到抱歉
What will we, end up to be?
我們到底會有怎樣的結果
Tell me what will you do?
告訴我，你究竟會選擇什麼？

Do we have any little bit of love left inside?
我們之間是否還存在著一點點愛
Is there any place a bit of love left could hide?
是否在某個角落還隱藏著一點點愛
If I could find a little bit of love could we try?
若真的還剩一點點愛是否可以再試一次
Would you be the death of me?
還是你一樣會讓我心碎

Cause I remember every little time that we cried
我忘不了我們每一次哭的場景
All of the fighting and every pretty little lie
還有每一次的爭吵與謊言
If we go back to living life like those times
如果我們打算回到過去
Would you be the death of me or would we die happily?
你是否還會讓我心碎，還是我們會永遠的幸福快樂

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To Miyabi Kugimachi (Queen Rose)

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アイドルグループ「めたもるふぉーぜ」でも活動しています！！
YouTubeチャンネル「めたふぉちゃんねる」でも動画を上げているので遊びに来てください♥

We are also active in the idol group "Metamorphose"! !
I'm also posting a video on the YouTube channel "Metafo Channel" so please come and visit me♥

https://www.youtube.com/c/metafoch/

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♥1st DVDやROMも発売しています！
是非、釘町商店へ！！

1st DVD and ROM are also on sale!
Come to Kugimachi Store!!!

https://miyajyaga382.official.ec/

♥ホラードラマ「ぞくり。」にも出演させて頂いています👻
I have also appeared in the horror movie "Zokkuri." 👻

https://amzn.to/3qyQAMi


■BGM
DOVA-SYNDROME様
https://dova-s.jp/
こんとどぅふぇ様
https://conte-de-fees.com/

■SE
効果音ラボ様
https://soundeffect-lab.info/

■イラスト
いらすとや様
https://www.irasutoya.com/
落書きアイコン様
https://rakugakiicon.com/
フリーペンシル様
https://iconbu.com/

#mico #ライバー #ライブ配信