Wild #wisteria I have completed 9 hours of surgery. It was a laparotomy and radical hysterectomy, so I am slowly recovering. Thank you for your warm message. From now on, I still have to fight cancer by giving radiation therapy and anti-cancer drugs. But I won't lose. 前回の投稿にあたたかいメッセージをありがとうございました。無事に手術を終えて退院し、自宅でゆっくり過ごしています。自分ならもっと早く日常に戻れると思っていたけど、想像以上の手術のダメージになかなか体が追いつかないのがもどかしく、時々「まだだめか…」と悲しく思うこともありますが、確実に日に日に回復していることを実感しています。既にお寿司も生肉も喉越しました✨ふふふ！元気な証拠だと思います。 そして、闘病記としてnoteを書いています。よかったらストーリーズのハイライト「about my cancer」のURLをつけているものから飛んで見てください。同じく子宮頸癌で悩む方がいれば参考にしてほしいな。

Ever since I was discharged from the hospital, I’ve tried to avoid thinking about anything chemo-related. Just the thought of having all this toxic fluid flowing through my veins made me so nauseous I would start retching. . My second day of chemo was when everything began to go downhill. On top of receiving 3 different drugs on day 2, I got my period the same day and everything else from there on was a blur. One thing I know for sure is I’ve never felt so weak and uncomfortable my entire life, not even after my laparotomy. I was discharged from the hospital on day 5, but it took me 4 days since then to finally feel a bit more like myself except my ears are still constantly ringing. At this point, I just really can’t wait to get this over with so that I can finally get sushi🥺🥺 #EllianC抗癌日記

Topik : Duit Boleh Dicari, Kebahagiaan Tak Boleh Diganti . Setelah 4 hari warded, arini bini & baby sy dibenarkan pulang. Bersalin di hospital swasta lagi2 operation caesar, sy boleh agak2 kosnya yakni dlm RM10k-15k. Tapi bile jumlah bil sebenar dibisik ke telinga sy, terduduk sy dibuatnye bang. RM20k total. Sy jd resah memikirkan bgaimana sy nk sampaikan nombor kepala 2 ni kpd bini. Bini start pushy2 tnye brape bil, sy tewas dgn desakanny & dgn berat hati sy sampikan berita nombor kepala 2 tu kpdny. . Berjurai air mata bini, dirasakan nombor kepala 2 tu semua salahnye. Dirasakan dirinya tidak layak sehinggakan die xdpt melahirkan baby kami dgn cara normal. Sy tenangkan bini "unny cube fikir balik, dgn 20k ni lah u berjaya gave birth to something yg teramat mustahil tuk kite dptkn. Moreover cube u bygkan couples yg trying to get baby, buat IVF easily dh cost around 15k so bil kite all in 20k, is ok". Biniku berjaya ditenangkan. . Mungkin ade yg berfikir, "tula sape suruh bersalin SJMC, tu hospital org2 berado je tu" tp given baby's circumstance (tali pusat ketat di leher) & komplikasi bini previously (pernah operation explorative laparotomy for burst appendicitis), SJMC was d right place. Parents sy salu pesan, "don't be a slave for money, cz money sentiasa boleh dicari" & btol ape kata parents sy, lepas kelahiran baby, rezeki dtg bersilih ganti. Ingat peeps, jgn sesekali kite berkira when it comes to wellbeing of our baby k?