Do what is right for you even if other people do not understand. Even if the whole world around you says you can’t. Even if it does not make any logical sense in the eyes of others. Even if your surroundings are devoid of life, you can bring your own colors.

As i grow older i realise im becoming more like my mum 😆🥲😬🤭 Attending Keertan and all Thanks @retribe.life @lkfgroup for this beautiful event. It isn’t wasn’t my thing until I realised how much i had to release in me each time i went to one of these events And yesterday was beautiful I found myself quietly trying to wipe off the tears as we focussed on the breathing and listened to the beautiful DANIELLA guiding us through it It was beautiful when we were told to hold the hand of the person sitting next to us and to let them know that they’re not alone. We’re all devoid of humanly touch&affection in many ways in this fast paced world&i dont mean the kind of touch that arouses you but the kind that makes you feel “everything is gonna be fine” So it was beautiful when we did that. I remember seeing Ariana slowly wiping off her tears trying not to make a sound.I was doing the same little did she know.We hugged each other tight&cried& tried our best not to turn the beautiful keertan into a funeral 😂 and when i looked around i saw the same emotions with many others too&Finally it felt good to know i wasnt alone. And i took a picture of that moment. It was beautiful.cant quite describe in words or I’m just bad at it. Being so far away from my loved ones&near&dear ones has had an effect with all of these too. We’re all humans with some of us who feel more than the others perhaps with some of us who maybe shut out everything&keep things to ourselves&thats how you deal with things But often it’s important to realise the importance of releasing that&opening up..i always wait for the person who hesitates to do that for their own time& so should you. Last few weeks this has been my main focus-to try&release all my emotions in a calm manner&to learn&grow from my actions Strangely i feel okay&alot calmer now today than a week or two ago I’ve also been taking real slow with my training even though i may have fallen off track with some of my goals..been trying to strike a balance with everything in life Thank you Ariana for going to this event with me. Absolutely loved your always amazing company yesterday 😭❤️ And to finish off the day, we had amazing Thai food

CW/TW: abuse, emotional violence, gaslighting, cheating. Let me start by saying I am okay now. I ended the relationship in December and have blocked this person from my life and have had no contact whatsoever in the last three months. I may be putting myself in danger by posting this, but I feel it needs to be said. I’ve only recently started unpacking some of the compartmentalized trauma and letting myself feel the rage, the despair, the hurt, and the terrible sadness I ignored to protect myself. Some of my close friends knew parts of it, and they all expressed concern to me at some point, but there really was nothing anyone else could do for me when I was stuck in that place. I was mocked and criticized constantly. For my art, my eating habits, my appearance, my social media, my friends, my beliefs, my joy. I was monitored and scrutinized and belittled on such a scale that I gave up photography and posting for months (some of you may remember that). I almost quit music. He would constantly get into arguments with me when he drank, get furious with me for calling out his drinking, dump me, block me, and then take me back the next day as if nothing happened. When I caught him cheating, he lied and used all sorts of reasons to cover up the truth, so drastic and devastating that I felt like a horrible person for pushing any further in my questioning. Once I was threatened with a libel lawsuit that then all but silenced me from confiding in my friends. On a separate occasion, he used my thumb to unlock and comb through my phone while I was sleeping in a hospital bed due to appendicitis. Bit by bit, I was isolated from my support system, stripped of my confidence, devoid of self worth, and my sense of reality was so distorted that he convinced me I was of equal fault for what he did to me. Was I perfect? No, but that gave him no right to do any of this. I’m not saying this to attack him or to ask for pity. I am saying this because i want to declare that I survived. And if you are someone who has been thinking about leaving a toxic relationship but don’t know if you should, I’m telling you: do it. Nothing justifies abuse. You’ll be much happier.