Some of you might have been aware that I have been going through some health challenges in the past few months. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ In short, after rounds of body examinations to rule out diff things, I was diagnosed with panic disorder. In reality though, it is far more than a label.
 Panic disorder is recurring panic attacks that can go on for hours, often times without any trigger. Symptoms include difficulty in breathing, choking, vertigo dizziness, chest pains, heart palpitations, and scariest of all - depersonalisation (the feeling that you are leaving your physical body). They can come and go without any warning - so for many weeks it was impossible for me to plan anything. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Before I knew what was happening, I thought I was going to die any moment. My world was turned upside down in one night. It was through sharing with people that gave me comfort and hope that I will be okay, when I realised there are a few around me who have faced similar challenges. Eventually, my willingness to share brought me to the term ‘panic disorder’ when I spoke to a previous client, a doctor who has professionally diagnosed these disorders before. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Four months on, my symptoms are now pretty much insignificant. The silver lining is - because of my health challenges, I am finally forced to slow down and make some permanent lifestyle and mindset changes - ones I always told myself I don’t have time for, but ones that eventually I should be making anyways.
Life is not a sprint - it is a marathon. 
We must learn to conserve energy and take care of the portal - our body - that helps us to do anything that we wish to do in life. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ None of us should be waiting for a health challenge to come along to force us into a healthier life. In upcoming posts, I will share more of my studies into the lifestyle and mindset changes I’m making this year. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ In the meantime, know that you are not alone.

延續去年的方式，替喜愛的30張西洋專輯排名，其他30張推薦，則按字母順序排列。回顧2015，聽音樂的時間有些支離破碎，2016恐怕只會更零碎。不過還是很感謝每一張聽到的專輯，與那些藏身其中的創作者。 關於音樂，我想說的，以及我能說的，好像已經說得差不多了。就繼續靜靜地聽。 My Albums Of 2015 1. Sufjan Stevens - Carrie & Lowell 2. Jamie xx - In Colour 3. Beach House - Depression Cherry 4. Deerhunter - Fading Frontier 5. Max Richter - Sleep 6. Steve Hauschildt - Where All Is Fled 7. Panda Bear - Panda Bear Meets The Grim Reaper 8. Tame Impala - Currents 9. Nils Frahm - Victoria 10. Godspeed You! Black Emperor - Asunder, Sweet and Other Distress 11. Courtney Barnett - Sometimes I Sit And Think, And Sometimes I Just Sit 12. Emile Haynie - We Fall 13. Wilco - Star Wars 14. Chemical Brothers - Born In The Echoes 15. Paul De Jong - IF 16. Blur - The Magic Whip 17. Jessica Pratt - On Your Own Love Again 18. Zachary Cale - Duskland 19. Jim O'Rourke - Simple Songs 20. Joanna Newsom - Divers 21. Four Tet - Morning/Evening 22. Beach House - Thank Your Lucky Stars 23. New Order - Music Complete 24. µ-Ziq - XTLP 25. Inventions - Maze Of Woods 26. Shlohmo - Dark Red 27. Grimes - Art Angels 28. Kurt Vile - b’lieve i’m goin down 29. John Tejada - Signs Under Test 30. Aero Flynn - Aero Flynn Honorable Mention (In Alphabetical Order) All We Are - All We Are Battles - La Di Da Di Beirut - No No No Big Noble - First Light Breakfast In Fur - Sun Catcher Destroyer - Poison Season DJ Richard - Grind EL VY - Return To The Moon Fort Romeau - Insides Gacha - Send Two Sunsets Grooms - Comb The Feelings Through Your Hair Helen - The Original Faces Holly Miranda - Holly Miranda John Grant - Grey Tickles, Black Pressure Julia Holter - Have You In My Wilderness Keep Shelly In Athens - Now I'm Ready Laura Marling - Short Movie Mac DeMarco - Another One Mark McGuire - Beyond Belief Modest Mouse - Strangers To Ourselves Nite Fields - Depersonalisation Nosaj Thing - Fated Pale Blue - The Past We Leave Behind Rachel Grimes - The Clearing The Soft Moon - Deeper The Tallest Man On Earth - Dark Bird Is Home Tamaryn - Cranekiss The World Is A Beautiful Place & I Am No Longer Afraid To Die - Harmlessness Toro y Moi - What For? Youth Lagoon - Savage Hills Ballroom http://pulp.bluecircus.net/archives/015495.html