100kg Deadlift milestone after surgery // -— swipe left for the first attempt 🤯—- // // -— swipe left for bonus —-// In the past, I was gonna keep my mouth shut until I could squat 100kg. Anything lesser than 80kg is just meh for squat, for me based on my standard. For deadlift, 100kg 5x5 is basic. 90kg meh. I always have my standard. Running 5:30min per km is the basic and even rhythmic cycling for fun, have to double time w resistance knob 7-8turn, climbing w 10turn using Flycycle bike/ gear 6-8 double time & gear 12-13 for climbing using Technogym bike. It’s for nothing but a sense of control. I felt that I am always losing control that’s why I have been using things that I can count to make sure I can trust myself. I need to know that I am capable of listening to my will and of coping with the world because most of the time I could not be functional in both personal and occupational life. Having adjusted my approach and mindset about lifting, I felt a huge improvement particularly in my mental condition. Last year May, after my surgery for herniated disc, I was quite fearful about overexerting when it comes to hinges. I would still like to think that this injury is a blessing in disguise that I allow myself to acknowledge my limit and to persuade myself not to overdo things solely because it gives me a sense of control. Telling myself that it’s enough is never easy but it has been achievable. Telling myself I have done well is never easy but I can’t believe that I am telling myself now, 🥬“Jean well done for 100kg” 🌶 even it’s just one rep because to overcome the fear of snapping my back again, it takes a lot from inside. So here I am, sharing this station of my journey, acknowledging that it’s something that I should celebrate even it might not even reach the average weight that a girl with my bodyweight could lift. But Jia You :) . . . . . . . . . #deadlift #herniateddisc #herniateddiscsurgery #postsurgery #rehab #postsurgerylifting #postsurgeryrecovery #postsurgerypb #backinjury #comeback