ATS Home Day.252~254 這禮拜根本桃園週，二三拍攝all day之外五還追加開會，基本上出班日體能就休兵，剩下的日子就只能盡力找空擋尻。 但體重不降反升、再次登板85kg，嗚嗚… 飲食不改真的降不了嗎… 然後我也再次意識到、疫情這三個月沒工作對我來說其實不一定是壞事。 這陣子老爸出院都有請看護分擔照顧工作，但這禮拜又要回院化療，交接日剛好有幾天看護空窗、三兄妹又得恢復輪流排班，也就是一天還是要分8小時。 遇到工作開始上線後我完全無法分神，真的是醒來就被行程追著跑、整個禮拜都得麻煩另外兩位cover… 今天台大醫院申請的住院看護終於排到了，希望之後會改善一些不然真的要爆掉了😫 __________ 本日BGM「摩訶不思議アドベンチャー」from ドラゴンボール #atshome #azonetraining

【台大出任務Round.4】今天早上陪KEN哥送老爸回台大醫院，從青島西路入口進入院區時，警衛看到我就問：「ㄟ好久不見，今天來看診嗎？」 我：「沒有啦，這次還是來陪住院」 從8/1到今天都已經出院超過十天了警衛還認得我，只能說待了兩個多月進進出出，想不被記住都難😂 此外陪病的人一如往常的要有七天以內的COVID-19 PCR檢測陰性證明，從五月底到現在我已經被檢測棒插了至少九次，朋友圈非醫護應該很難比我多次😂 現在就是固定兩個禮拜左右要回院做化療，上一次原本要動個小手術安裝人工血管也因為有細菌感染延到這次。 總之大概又是個十天起跳的小routine，反正就兵來將擋、見招拆招囉 #台大醫院出任務 #聽Ken哥說這次白天的實習醫生好像是熱舞社的 #因為他認出TEAMSKIP踢恤還問是不是白爛哥朋友

今天是個特別的日子。我戒菸100天了！不知不覺，這一天就到來了。我的菸齡約有七年，這段時間也有嘗試過幾次戒菸。這次是持續最久的一次，希望可以永遠擺脫煙癮。 抽菸對我來說是一種幻覺。以為它可以讓我在每天的行程中，有個「喘息」的時間，用手機，休息。它也是一個儀式性的動作，在各式場合的前後，彷彿用菸來做準備，或者完結。 到了後面，真的感覺到菸對身體的影響，像是運動會容易喘、心悸。此外，身旁的人也會聞到菸的臭味。今年四月發生了一件讓我非常震驚的事，成為我戒菸一大原因。 我的球友在打球時突然倒下，全身抽蓄，甚至一度沒有呼吸心跳。緊急被送到台大醫院，在加護病房與死神搏鬥了好多天。他現在已經出院了，但我想還是對他的身體有永久的影響。 從那一天起，我就沒有再抽菸了。這一百天來，發生了許多讓我煩惱、焦慮的事，甚至感覺絕望到谷底。我都會跟自己說，也許這是考驗自己忍耐不去抽菸的契機。總之一百天過去了，未來還是有許多困境，但慢慢都還是會步上軌道的。今天就讓我們小小的慶祝一下吧！ Today marks the 100th day since I quit smoking cold turkey this April. It came sooner than I had expected. Over my 7 years of smoking, I tried to quit a few times, and this 100-day attempt is by far the longest one. I hope to get rid of it once and for all. Smoking kind of gave me a vibe of relaxation, which in fact, is just an illusion. I always thought cigarettes would help me savor my breaktime more, and of course, it’s a delusion. Besides, smoking became sort of a ridiculous ritual. I’d basically light up a cigarette or two to loosen up before and after any kind of occasion. Being a smoker for years, I could feel the impact. For example, I became short of breath easily during exercise, and I sometimes had irregular heartbeats. Plus, people around me could easily feel the unpleasant smell of smoking. However, I wouldn’t have quit had one particular event not happened this April. During one basketball game, my teammate suddenly collapsed, shaking uncontrollably on the floor. Initially, we didn’t know what was going on, but later it was clear that he was having a heart attack. His heart even stopped for a while when the ambulance arrived. He spent several weeks in the ICU, and he was discharged in May. I’m afraid the heart attack can leave some permanent damage. I haven’t been smoking since then. Over the 100 days, I experienced many negative feelings --- anxiety, frustration, despair… you name it. I even felt like I had hit a new low in my life. I cope by imagining the bad things as a challenge god gives me to see if I’ll be strong enough to resist the temptation of tobacco. I guess many things will still freak me out in the future, but I believe I’m on the right path. Anyway, it’s time for a little celebration!